Reading the "drinking" and "smoking" threads - I do both, I am now thinking I may have an addictive personality. It has been mentioned to me before by a very close friend that she thinks my personality is additive. Whatever I do, I seem to do to the extreme. At the moment the bad ones are smoking, drinking coffee and drinking alcohol. I do not eat at all during the day (another sign of addiction?).
Today is the first day of my "new life". Sitting here - working at home - with a bottle of water (struggling to drink it but will perservere).
I am still smoking - can't do everything at once and I think my drinking is more of a problem at the moment.
For the first time in about 4 years I have not had coffee and a cigarette for breakfast, but had some cereal. I am going to have some lunch today.
I normally smoke about 20 cigarettes a day, drink about 7/8 cups of coffee a day and then, come 5:30 or so, start on the alcohol - but NOT TODAY.
My friend first mentioned my addictive personality to me about 3 years ago. It started with shopping. We were going on holiday after just moved house and could not find the beach towels. Took bath towels instead. The weekend after we got back, I went out and bought 14 (yes, 20) bath towels - over £200 I spent and these were for our annual holiday 11 months later! I bought 14 towels because, for two weeks holiday, I thought we needed 4 each for me and my (ex) husband and 3 each for my 2 children. Now got 3 children, no husband, so the towels are still used.
I did find the old beach towels - I thought I had thrown them out when we moved as they were in black bin bags - but found them. I could only take back the ones to M & S (about 3 months after buying them) but they only gave me credit vouchers. The others I bought from Matalan and they would not take them back so have now got some old and some new beach towels.
To explain further, if I decide one of my children needs new socks, I will buy about 15 pairs and just throw out all the old ones. My youngest DD has 3 bikinis and 4 swimming costumers for our holiday in August.
My son has 9 pairs of trainers - all the same size!
My DD2 has 5 winter coats - I reasoned one for wearing, one in the wash and one spare. I then seen to buy a couple more just as spares.
I really do think my personality is addictive. I feel I need some sort of "help" but what kind?
My mum is under a psychiatrist - suffers from depression - but I feel a bit silly talking to her about this because it is quite minor really.
I just worry that whatever I seem to do - whether it is good or bad for me - I seem to take it to the extreme.
Anyone else the same?