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Hello all - quick dash in to say I'm thinking of you and hope all is well - I haven't had time to read through posts properly, so many apologies, but am sending random love and hugs to all. Have been out lot this week - doing the art activities with children thing I'm involved in - great fun, but tiring, the kids seem to be really enjoying it though so all good.

ned - so glad Dr Lovely is coming to see you at home for a proper long chat, depression is so horrible, and the sooner they can help you start feeling yourself again, the better. The emotional stuff is so hard to deal with - i found it so much harder than the physical things - losing my hair, losing my boob - walk in the park compared to the stuff going on in my head. (I know this isn't the same for everyone but it was in my case). I've been on AD's since DX and went through a period of having them increased to a much higher dose,
Bad patches come and go, and you somehow have to try to get through them, and I'm really pleased the medics are being so good and offering you lots of stuff to help. (I'm down to a pretty low dose of AD's now - so there is light at the end of the tunnel, but it does take time) loads of love darling - you know I am thinking of you XX

Roca - just wanted to quickly say I had polyps in my late 30's - eventually had a hysterectomy, but that's not necessary in most cases - don't panic! - they did cause loads of bleeding, I think you need to be reassured that they are common things to get whether or not you've had cancer, and even more common if you are having any kind of hormonal treatment (I think mine were connected with the pill I was on at the time), its good that your gynae thinks everything looks normal otherwise, - she wouldn't say that if she wasn't pretty confident that all is good. try not to worry

must sign off - I have to go out again soon - more sticky, glittery kids to herd - my God kids love to use a lot of glitter !!

love to all - nice to see you Elibean - and ledkr, love to everyone, hugs to OTM (nearly there lovely, you will get there )

Will be back to my usual state of indolence next week, so I will post properly then xx

Oh yes meant to say I am going down the totally home made route for Christmas this year - knitting and crocheting on an industrial scale going on chez Kurri - its been so nice not to battle my way round the shops, we have also made some sweets (tablet - yum!) to give to everyone, I am making home made crackers (with home made jokes!) as well. Only things I have bought apart from wool, are some charity shop books so everyone has something to read over Christmas. I can definitely recommend the cheapo Christmas - it's very liberating.

Afternoon all

Yesterday was a better day - went in to school and spent the day with my class. They are really lovely - some real characters but it was really nice to be able to watch them work and spend some time with them. Now just need to get my head around the planning. . .

Also a better day, as I weighed myself for the first time in ages and I have lost a stone in total since October. Not masses, but definite progress.

Thanks everyone for kind words - have had a little cry reading all your messages, but in a good kind of way.

kurri got the DVDs! Thank you so much (and gig too for loaning them out ) DH is away two nights next week, so I am having a HW-fest in his absence. Being my toyboy a bit younger than me and knowing his family, I can't see that it was ever something they would have watched!

Am in awe of homemade Christmas - you will be looking like <a class="break-all" href="http://www.google.co.uk/imgres?num=10&hl=en&tbo=d&biw=1920&bih=979&tbm=isch&tbnid=AGDjppF3UgshuM:&imgrefurl=www.waterstones.com/waterstonesweb/products/kirstie%2Ballsopp/kirstie27s%2Bhomemade%2Bhome%2B28ebook29/8670312/&docid=ezV9GPntjtdwFM&imgurl=images.contentreserve.com/ImageType-100/1531-1/%25257B3C646ABA-64D4-461A-8E19-70F7D6FF0846%25257DImg100.jpg&w=510&h=680&ei=m_nBUIjZBaay0AH0-4HQDg&zoom=1&iact=hc&vpx=790&vpy=91&dur=2667&hovh=259&hovw=194&tx=124&ty=171&sig=100590263612787769990&page=1&tbnh=132&tbnw=97&start=0&ndsp=60&ved=1t:429,r:4,s:0,i:96" rel="nofollow" target="_blank">this by Christmas Eve! DS and I managed to make some Christmas decorations from a kit for DBs wedding - he has asked everyone to bring a tree decoration for the tree in the venue, but I think they need more gluing. Santa's trousers are looking decidly loose . . .

smee welcome back, my love. Hope you had a productive time away. DS is very disgruntled that he has to still go to school now that he's started his Advent calendars. Surely it must be Christmas?

ledkr I have had genetic testing for other things, not BC - my DS has a genetic disorder and I am a carrier, and I think knowledge is power.

Must think about assembling some football kit for DS and getting off to school. Can't think he's going to want to play football in this wind. That's what I am hoping anyway.

Lots of love and hugs to all - you are all amazing x x x x x x

well done ned on weight loss and for having a good day with your class Am sure you'\ll be feeling tip top once things get underway.
smee didn't ring the chemo nurses as the tummy stuff seemed to work yesterday-hands not so good though and feet are peeling like very peely things. Last tablets this evening,then a week's rest. Will tell onc everything though when I go.
Had a fringe cut today- haven't had one as such for ages- now need to get used to it !!

MAS, good that it's the last tablet then. Maybe things will settle soon. Horrid to have the feet peeling like that though. Do you put Aveeno on them too? Is fringe cut bold and daring, or blunt and brutal. Hope the former!

Ned, your class sound sweet, though am sure it will be hard work. Yr1 seem so tiny to me now. My DS looks like a teenager next to them. Losing a stone is masses! Don't lose it too quickly, now will you.

Have just had an almighty pillow fight with DS and ripped a pillowcase. He is still laughing..

just back from Christmas planning with parents (and a gin and tonic)
I put aqueous on my feet -seems quite good but am sure Aveeno will do as well.
Fringe is I hope the former !

smee As my mother says "you are far too giddy with them" (tries stern ex headteacher - yes it was a deputy Head having it off on the rug, it was like Last Tango in Halifax!- look but totally fails)

MAS at least that is one more nearly done. This chemo does seem to be having quite a load of side effects. It is an endurance test isn't it? I am sure it will be "chemonurse" to the rescue (to the tune of "Wonder woman") Actually "chemonurse" might respond even quicker to a scary blunt and brutal fringe!! Bet it isn't though, and a great excuse for more indulgent trips to hairdressers.

Ned It's always a bit day at a time, glad today was good. I'm sure once you are with those 6 year olds the world will seem a brighter place.

Well done ned with the weight loss. A stone is really good. Glad you like your new class.

mas hopefully your week off will allow your hands and feet to repair themselves a little before your next one. Sorry I have forgotten how many are you having? Thank you for my Christmas email, Celeste is looking very festive

Have just booked tickets to take DD to see santa. I am so excited.

Yea ned for going into school and losing a stone - well done. :)

kk In awe of home made Christmas. I have done bits before, made hats one year and several years made rum truffles and marzipan fruits, but I can't see that I have planned any spare time this year :(

I have an interview for the job I applied for Heck, I need to do some cpd before the end of December and do some prep for this

The woodburner is great - allowed to have a tiny fire today but tomorrow we can have a big fire but we have to let it out and leave the door ajar overnight - something to do with curing the paintwork...

Too much junk in the house - Dh accidentally let his Mum's house - so all our stuff that was there and her furniture has to move pronto. Aargh!

How did your dh "accidentally" let a house jchoc and I had serious of your wood burner.

ned glad you had a good day- and completely agree with kurri that for me the emotional fallout is worse than the physical. All I can say is it isn't just you and you have to take it a day or even in case of bad days a minute or hour at a time.

Hw (and other tv ) was a good form of escape when I felt rubbish.

masanother one down . Sorry about feet though- keep slathering the cream on. And hope gin helped.

smee hope you have a restful weekend.

gracie what are you going to ask Fc for?

Got busy day sorting out christening for tomorrow - got to collect cake, girls' dresses then take girls to pottery cafe after it was postponed. Hd lovely afternoon shopping and getting nails done with my dsis yesterday. Also got my pre course reading on kindle - dh keeps saying "shouldn't you be studying" when I am on Mn.

Can't sleep so making huge effort to catch up with everyone and I'm noticing a trend in here to which we should probably alert the medial researchers: people with cancer have DHs who are classicists!!!! who'd have thought it? My DH is one and it looks like there's some sort of link...

apart from that madness there is also a knitting/crochet link though maybe only people on chemo have the time to knit/crochet.

although it is entirely possible that so much chemo has simply addled my brain

For otm . What about becoming obsessed with odd tv when on chemo- hw, scandy crime (tho I think topsy and others like crime tv and books anyway).

Morning! Time for a quick before parkrun.
Dh was at mil's house doing some repairs when one of the neighbours grown up children (currently renting elsewhere) asked and he said yes. Had discussed renting it out as dmil can't leave her mum and hasn't been able to use it as she would like.
Hope your busy day goes smoothly, gig.
Aargh must dash!

HW? am totally tv obssessed and had a stern talking to from BT about the amount of streaming we do (its all me though, i confess). have seen the entirety of greys anatomy, brothers and sisters, flashforward and am now starting House which seemed to have passed me by completely. With DH watching scandi crime which we seem to love even though I hate snow and cold weather in general. Also when awake and not totally doolally I watch foreign films with him which he understand in the VO but I have to be able to read the sub titles.

just switched ISP to talktalk and have got the youview box which is proving fun - i can catch up with all TV I miss! hurray, t has box sets on it which will stop me from being told off by talktalk for streaming too much... for gigs and me

is it christening today gig ? hope it is lovely - don't forget to post pictures of you all in your dresses
No tablets h today,hooray !! As far as i know this regime is continuous -until it doesn't work really...am sure they can hone the dosage to a tolerable level..

OTM HW is Howards Way. gig sent DVDs to kurri and she sent them on to me. Could send it on to you once I've watched if you like? PM me your address if you fancy a watch and I'll post them on. (if you're happy for your DVDs to carry on travelling, gig ?!)

gig hope today goes brilliantly for you and your girls. Am sure you'll have a lovely day. Lots of pics please! You're right about taking things one day at a time - that's what I am trying to do. Once I have stopped coughing and I can sleep properly again, I think that will help too.

MAS good news on no tablets today! Hope those pesky feet don't hold you up too much.

jchoc good luck with the park run. Its gorgeous sunshine where we are, so hope you've got some sun too. It makes the whole experience more enjoyable, I imagine? Hope you post a good time today x x

smee hope you can have a peaceful weekend after all your gallivanting this week. Feet up and on maybe?

Got my choir concert tonight - aaargh! Hoping coughing has not made my singing too croaky!

Waves to kurri, gracie, copthall, topsy, HND and anyone else lurking.

Have a lovely day all x x x x x x x x x

Yes am more than happy for the DVDs to travel and will circulate the next ones kurri when I get them
Back from dm.

Christening is actually tomorrow- just picked up the cake and it looks amazing. Lots of photos to follow.

loads of luck to ned for tonight !! you'll be fab xxxx

Nipping in to wish Ned's voice a bit of clarity. Am I wrong in thinking a nice glug of might help.

Gigs, you'll definitely need tomorrow. Hope the relatives behave and you have a lovely time.

Good luck for to ought Ned
You will be fab !

And Gigs , deep breaths and plenty of wine and you will get through tomorrow .
Don't forget plenty of tissues and lots of pics for us please !

I have a living room full of Christmas lights and lit candles (including my lovely morrocan tea light holder from a lovely board member !)
My fire is lit , and I am drinking my fave wine (which just happened to be half price in Tesco today)
Think I might just feel a little Christmassy today .

Went shopping with DD today .
She conned me out of 2 pairs of coloured jeans , 3 long sleeved t shirts ,1 pair of jogging bottoms , and a bizarre jumper !
She's very happy !

DS needed jeans as he keeps growing .
Went round all the shops , and he finally allowed us to buy him 1 pair !
He is sooooo damn fussy !

Take away night tonight .
Chinese or Indian ?

Ofcourse that should have said "tonight" Ned
Damn auto correct !

chinese !!
we're having some chicken wrapped in bacon thing- then am off to paaaaarty !! sans dh as he is feeling under the weather - shall have to be brave and go alone. Won't be out late as am too feeble and tired. Decorations all up and looking v festive- just holly from the garden to arrange and my front door thing to do

My friend (with the same surname as you and who lives in a neighbouring village to you !) collects Old Mans Beard every Christmas to use as decorations .
I think that's lovely .

I wanted Chinese but DH was craving Indian . And as he is in shock from spending so much money on the DC today , I thought I'd let him have his way ...

Chinese, obviously!!! We are having one of my Ducks which I have spent the last 3 days attacking with the hairdryer, vats of boiling water and marinating in various ointments and spices. It's now roasting. Candles also lit, including now burning all my lovely Shanghai Tang and Chinese dragon candles because two weeks from now I will be replacing them

I was resisting the decorating until big DD comes home, just did some tasteful pots for the garden today but then just had a walk through the town centre with goon dog and I am feeling quite festive, so front garden is not going to be tasteful for very long.......

Topsy Empathise with shopping with teenagers but actually I mean [frazzled], especially the search for the illusive perfect jeans, at least you do not have Oxford Street Top Shop where you go and sit in EAT with all the other mothers whilst they come back parading a variety of unsuitable items and nothing they actually need, whilst you say No, next, No, next No and then finally trug around all three floors finding suitable compromises.... Occasionally a 8ft supermodel trails past you just to complete the feeling of being dowdy and past it (Rachel whatsit Rod Stewarts ex, once but she did have terrible spots, I may have only one boob but I have no spots!) DD went out earlier in my boots because we still haven't compromised on anything suitable.....

MAS Have a lovely party

Gigs Have a lovely party tooo. Sending positive vibes over the rooftops, and putting Valium in the water supply to calm rellys (it's probably time we tranquilised all the parents whose poor DCs are doing the Jan selective exams anyway )

Ned I'm with Smee for clear and gorgeous singing. Do you get to do your sob story A la X Factor? "Ned has spent the week battling illness but pulls off a sensational performance" All members of choir give you a standing ovation???

topsy - which village ?
Ok, best tidy myself- feel a bit nauseous but have dosed myself with dom perignon and loperimide - will get my prosecco from the fridge and go forth...