This is ridiculous. I have been truly looking forward to having my gallbladder removed tomorrow. It has been a hideous journey and I cannot wait to get rid of the damn thing. However, today, I'm getting ready, packing my bag etc and I've been overwhelmed by nerves.
Firstly I got a bout of diarrhoea this morning (could be the gallbladder, could be nerves but I suspect the latter!).... am now sitting here feeling really, really nauseous and dizzy.... "worrying" head is saying that I'm actually going down with something and the op may be cancelled, "sensible" head is saying that's crap and I need to grow a set as it's clearly my nerves....
Cannot believe I'm responding like this to an operation but I'm terrified of being sick after the operation (I have a phobia) and the idea of puking in front of anyone makes me......feel.......sick.........bloody hell....
OMG, irrational thoughts are driving me insane. I need some calm, sensible thoughts from someone please!!