It is just being in constant pain to the point where it's just normal to be in pain and you can't remember what it feels like to not be in pain.
It's yelling at the kids ELBOWS ELBOWS cos they look like they're about to make contact and if they do, you will feel like you're on fire for about 15 minutes.
It's forgetting what you were talking about when you're halfway through a sentence.
It's forgetting a word! Standing there like a pillock because you just can't remember the word "yoghurt" or something. It's gone. It's not there.
It's feeling like there's a great big ball of cotton wool where your brain used to be.
It's not being able to sleep and not feeling like you've slept when you do!
It's laying there in a morning, totally unable to move because you seem to have turned to stone overnight and unstiffening is a process! (I can't wipe my bum in a morning. I just don't have the range of movement required.)
It's tingling. I lose sensation in my hands, arms, legs. If I try to sew on a button my fingers cramp, I have to drop my arm to my side and wait. I can't peel potatoes, I can't carry a heavy pan. Hell, on a bad day, I can't carry the bloody kettle from the tap to the socket!
It's speaking in tongues as you trip over your words and gobbledegook comes out.
bowel problems, dizzyness, anxiety... it's just horrible, frankly. And the worst thing is that it just becomes who you are. You get used to it. I can't remember the last time I wasn't in pain
All of that, then all of that again. I got diagnosed in 2004/5 after years of being in pain and being fobbed off.