Losing weight. Not sure if depressed or due to medication?

[TooManyShadesofGrey]

name changed.
Habe always been 'skinny' but always been a good weight. Always eaten like a horse. Have a high metabolism, eat lots but figit lots, run around like a headless chicken at high speed most of the time. When younger I remember a friend telling me that due to the amount I ate/crap I ate I would regret it when I was 30. Now 35 and laughing as continued the weight I was.

I had hyperemesis when pg with both children, managed ok with first, not so well with second. 5ft 3 and weighed 9st2 when first found out, and weighed 9st8 when I gave birth. Dropped dramatically when bf and ate like a horse/more so.

When much younger I was around 8.5st, then from after DD moved to 9.2 where i stayed til DS, aged 2.5 and went back to quickly. so 9.2 is my weight I guess.

Anyway, that is all to give you an idea of me. I like cakes and donuts, but prefer savoury (curries, bread, pasta and tomato sauce). I don't eat red meat but eat chicken and fish, have a pretty healthy eating lifestyle.

Had some back problems. Caused a lot of pain. been on lots of medication including codiene and my appetite has dropped off completely. I have stopped taking it now, but I am not hungry. I simply have no desires to eat whatsoever. Not even bread/pasta which I could eat by the bucket full. I did not think that much of it really as I have also not been to the gym so feel quite flabby! But, DH said I have lost weight.

And then, someone from DDs school spotted me in supermarket. She has the same condition as me and is v supportive and interested when we speak. Hardly know her but almost feel like i do, anyway, she has seemed concerned about me, asks how I am a lot. Then in the supermarket she tapped me on the head and said 'hey you are really skinny!' i laughed, did not know if she meant generally or just now so I said 'oh, think i have lost some weight!' and she said 'no shit!'.

no one else has said anything other than DH. No friends or work colleagues. But obviously I am trying to change it. But, I feel sick and a bit like I have some virus if I eat too much. So I am nibbling.

There is just no hunger there. Which is so unlike me as I often think of food!

I have felt quite down about my health, but I have also not been depressed before so, this is quite unusual for me to feel all in all, they don't seem linked, but maybe they are?

Sorry for the ramble.

oh, and I weighed myself last week so did have an idea I had lost some. But don't know if it is a lot or not as I have never watched my weight.

went from usual 9.2 to 8.13. But, I put it down to my muscle changing to fat as I am not exercising. That is only 5lb? but I guess the concern for me is that I never lose weight like that, always stay at 9.2 whatever I do/exercise or eat.

I think your weight seems pretty normal/healthy for your height so wouldnt be unduly worried but if you are concerned perhaps go and see your GP

oh good!, I think it is the loss of apetite, weight loss and comments altogether that bother me.

I wont talk to the gp as he will just give me drugs for depression and send me packing!

I woud keep an eye on your loss of appetite though and do go and see the GP if you're not feeling yourself.

Perhaps try some small snacks but just eat what you fancy.

I am forcing myself to eat some toast in the morning, and trying to eat something throughout the day, but compared to my normal eating, its just nothing. Even now, when I think about anything I fancy, I can't think of anything.

we got a take away curry the other night. Normally I would eat all my share of a main/two sides/popadum/pickles/rice/naan with DH, and any of DHs if leftover, this time, I was full before I had finished the popadum! I had some of it, but about a third what I would and that was pushing it.

I feel like I have lost my 'spark'. which is why i wonder if I am depressed. how would I know?

i remember when I first gave birth to DS, after 9 months, literally of puking daily, several times a day. I remember eating 4 slices of toast and wondering how on earth I ever thought 2 was enough! 2 did not touch the sides! Now, 1 is a struggle. But I also remember feeling hungry when pg with DS. I remember wanting to want to eat, but knowing the food would make me vomit. I felt miserable not wanting to eat, as I loved eating and missed it. mealtimes was a big thing for us, family time, DH is a great cook. This time, the desire is just not there. I don't even miss it.

I really would go to the gp - loss of appetite could be down to a myriad of things and is worth getting checked out.

I spend all my time at the gp's surgery these days, complaining about this and that. I really dont want to go back with another minor thing. I know I should but its just going to add to the sense that I am depressed. I know it sounds daft as I dont know what depression feels like for me, but I have lost my 'spark' and have a lot going on, but i don't feel depressed. But, then, maybe lots of people don't.

I'm not sure what it could be as MrsCampbellBlack says it could be a myriad of things, but have you had your thyroid checked recently? Thyroid imbalances can affect appetite and cause a general flat feeling or depression.

I think you definitely need to have a chat with your doctor. If you need to, see a different one if it helps.