Got PND, been feeling bad for a while now, but now I really feel that I can't cope with everything anymore.
The kids are lovely and I am so lucky to have them, I know that, but I spend a lot of the day in tears, and worry about what effect this has on them.
There's just so much stuff that needs doing and I feel like I'm sinking under the weight and responsibility of it all. Every aspect of my life is going badly.
Dh knows how I feel, there are times when I've cried hysterically in front of him, told him how shit I've been feeling, how much I hate myself, that I feel like I can't cope at times, and I just seem to struggle through to the end of each day and don't enjoy any of it anymore.
A few other members of the family know too, probably not aware of the extent.
But he is sympathetic at the time, and then just goes to work the next day and things carry on as before. He never brings it up unless I do, even when he can see things are still really difficult for me.
There is no one that I can go to who would understand and be there for me to help me out of this.
Everyone has their own problems.
I feel like I need to do something to make them realise how bad this has got, and I just don't know what to do.