My ds (5yo) and dd (10m) have had colds since Thurs. DS copes well, but dd has had trouble breathing/sleeping, so dh and I have been up with her a lot. On fri night I sat with her on the couch until about 4am so she could sleep upright on my chest and not get clogged. She still cried and shifted every 20 mins or so. DH felt ill yesterday, so I took dd out with me for a couple if hours. Last night I got that horrible tingly throat feeling, and sure enough I got sicker and sicker through the night, plus still had to get up to dd. So this morning I sent a mass text to friends and family asking for a couple of hours help from anyone who had the time. We live in Sydney where we're having a very cold and wet public holiday Monday. A friend who lives near us watched the kids while dh and I got some groceries, and now my dad has picked them up for a few hours so I can sleep. I know that I would want to lend a hand to any of my loved ones in a similar situation, but that hasn't stopped me lying in bed with a heavy feeling of guilt. I feel selfish like I've taken advantage of my fam and friends, but also guilty for putting myself ahead of the kids today. I'm still breastfeeding, but I've sent dd off with formula.
I know I'm tired and poorly and it's putting me in this negative mood, but can someone please just give me a gentle word and tell me I have made the right move?