OK, changed my name for this one. I feel so stupid at the damage I have done/may have done to myself & also pannicky that I might end up dead! That might seem over dramatic, but I've just made the mistake uf browsing the internet & it's freaked me out, so I really need your help if you've been there/know someone who has/are medical in any way.
I was drinking pretty much every day. Usually sharing a bottle of wine with dh. Recently (so last few months) started haveing a beer (about a pint of strong) as well, sometimes too. I've also started drinking during day, do not know why. Just because I could. At my bloody minded, I'm giving up so I'll go out with a bang I had a few days of 6 pints of strong beer). How stupid.
So now I have given up. I had my last drink on Tuesday. On Wednesday night I had my 1st symptoms, felt feverish, dripping in sweat in the night, unbelievable headache, felt very weak in the morning & could hardly find the strength to stand up or do normal jobs. Wed pm felt miles better. since then I have had occasional clammy episodes, on and off bad headache. Still have headache now.
Anyway, like I said, reading articles has freaked me out. I've gone from feeling really proud & relieved to have goven up drinking to terror. The articles said should always consult doctor when giving up (I really don't want to. I cannot admit how much I've drunk, I just want to put all my stupidilt behind me). I also thought after 5 days I woould be over the worst, but it was saying how dangerous & life threatening dt's & grand mal seizures were, with 20% fatality rate etc & that these can still ocuur after a week of giving up, so just when I thought I was over the worst I'm terrified I'm going to drop dead! I might sound stupid, but I've really scared myself. Literally just reading the article made me come over all clammy & palpitations & I had to go & lie down.
Lastly I also read if you get withdrawal symptoms, it's likely you've damages organs. I guess my poor liver has had a lot to deal with, but is it likely to self-repair, can I do anything to help myself, asssuming I don't die of a grand mal seizure this pm?
It was reading a thread on here of someone worried about her dh's drinking that finally pushed me to give up, & a book recommendation that helped. So giving up has been thanks to mumsnet, so keeping me alive/reassured will be greatly appreciated too!