I was going to change my name as I wasn?t sure about mutual friends reading this as they may find it insulting?/upsetting but decided to stay as me as I don?t normally change. Also because this will make me look ridiculous
Anyway I need a sensible ear
I will try and tell you everything in my op. Please don't bash me. I know I sound silly but I also need help.
Since September I have been suffering from headaches, not migraines (well a couple but I consider them unconnected) but quite heavy dull headaches. I had put it down to my teeth/glasses/it being winter and they have eased recently.
For the last month my back has been aching. I have four children, one who I still lift a fair bit but normally when I get backache from overdoing it I get a feeling almost like sunburn on my skin and I hadn?t been getting that this time. I haven?t done anything different or strained it on a particular occasion that I know of.
A few weeks ago I started getting breathless more than usual, my chest would also often feel tight but it never lasted long so didn't get too worried about it.
Now I'm hurting more. My back is really quite painful especially quite high up near my neck and round onto my shoulder, it hurts to turn to the left. My ribs ache and I keep getting twinges, at the moment they're on my right hand side about bra band height. Also I aches in my coccyx, my hips and my pelvis either side at the back and my limbs feel... tired.
My appetite has also waned but it does decrease in summer anyway.
Now the crux of the matter. I hadn't really thought much of each of these things. They hurt, are annoying and getting worse gradually but nothing to make me worry.
Until the other day when my back was so painful I decided might need to start thinking about going see someone about it if it got much worse. So I wrote all of the above down and then freaked out because it looks so similar to something a friend wrote about a while back. She died a few years later from cancer
. Breast cancer with secondary bone cancer, she was breast feeding and hadn't noticed anything. The first she knew was her back getting really painful. I'm not as bad as that but neither do I want to wait to see if it gets that bad. I am normally such a calm person about these things. I can remember the last time I went to the doctor, ds3 (3)wasn't very old and I had pretty bad mastitis, antibiotics cleared it up. Prior to that I don't know, I did have infected sinuses at one point but apart from hospital visits due to having babies I am pretty healthy and rarely go to the gps. Neither do my children. (btw I too am breastfeeding and have checked my breasts to the best of my knowledge)
So what would you advise me to do? I feel a fraud. None of the symptoms are horrendous on their own and I can't turn up saying I'm scared I might have something serious wrong with me because ... well because, but at the same time I can't quell these fears I have. It's permeating my thoughts a lot and I need to know there isn't anything wrong. I feel even if I do go to the gps (who I haven't been to before) they will assume I'm being silly and that's not going to actually calm me is it? The logical part of me thinks I've probably just hurt my back and it's impacting on the rest of my body. Help
(I wrote this a few days ago and have just got up the guts to post it because I feel silly, sorry it's so long)