was going to change name as i feel a prat posting this but,
basically i'm o.k day to day but i don't feel i can cope if i have to look after the kids alone i.e if partner is away overnight say.
I have this terrible fear of them being ill which could be bordering on phobic!
if he goes out drinking i feel really worried because i know that he won't be back until the early hours and then of course be drunk.
he drives for a living and when he's off somewhere miles away that makes me feel the same.
trouble is, we aren't getting on very well and im know i need to stand on my own 2 feet and no that i can cope alone without going into panic mode if i have to.
i am on my own tonight and so far have checked ds2 about 5 times! my kids are schoolage fgs i am pathetic! i imagine every awful scenario possible.