I know this may sound like a petty problem, but I've recently lost a lot of weight (c. 15 kg - BMI just under 17) and I'm now feeling really horrible about it. It looks as though I've developed some form of diabetes, so hopefully the weight will come back on - and in the meantime I'm eating the most ridiculous amounts of food (and prescribed supplements) to try and help.
This may sound really stupid - but I'm now quite down about the way I look, and feel. DH has finally confessed that he's embarrassed for me - he thinks I look anorexic, and I imagine people probably are thinking that. I also just know that I look very unattractive - I'm covered in scars from previous medical procedures, and now so bony you can see and count every rib, particularly on my neck/boob area. In one sense I don't care what anybody else thinks, but of course actually I do.
I feel cold all the time, and tired, but mainly I feel down. I think, from what I've read, that that is just a symptom of low bodyweight, so presumably it will improve as the weight goes back on? I feel dizzy everytime I stand up, and just got no stamina for anything - presumably that will also improve?
finally, a strange question, but any idea how best to 'hide' the weight loss? The cold weather has been a blessing in many ways, as I've been wearing multiple thermal layers one under the other and nobody has been any the wiser, but it's start to get a bit warm for that. Presumably my ill-fitting clothes will actually make the weight loss more obvious?
I suppose I just want some reassurance. I know the cause of the weight loss, and I'm fairly confident that it will improve, but I hadn't expected it to impact quite so much on the way I view and see myself. I'm down, but I suppose I jsut want some reassurance that that is an effect and not the cause?
sorry for rambling.