Depression

[alfiesmummyx]

Hello

I am new to mumsnet, I am generally lost so i am hoping this is a freindly place to be....

Where to start - i think i have to admit i have depression, its been a tough few years, i had my son at 26 weeks 2 years ago and although he is a healthy cheeky 2 year old now we have been to hell and back. think i may have blocked a lo of that emotion at the time?

I also have a fast failing marriage and enough in law/ step child dramas to last me a life time.

I generally feel awful, textbook depression i guess without going into detail ~( for fear of boring you all or me being here all day ). I feel so guilty for feeling so crappy as my son is such a fighter..

i have never had these feelings ever in my life until recently so i'm pretty unsure where to file it in my super uniformed and organised brain?

i am hoping to chat to people who have been there and done it, maybe even still doing it - i just want to know what to do.....

Thanks in anticipation!

Happy New year xx

Hello there and welcome to Mumsnet.

Sorry to hear you've been through a lot and are feeling bad.

Have you been to see you GP? This is for most people the first step. I think it's important in that you get a diagnosis and confirmation that you are depressed. It helps in going through the steps to recovery. It is possible that there are other medical issues responsible (thyroid etc) and you can rule that out then too.

Mind Over Mood is a good book. Perhaps get some books in the library.

Living Life To The Full is also often recommended.

Try to eat and sleep well. Exercise helps. Keep busy. Do go out and socialise.

You sound really concerned about your son and how it would affect him and I can relate to that. My children are used to depression around them and it is horrible, but I cannot hide it from them. I try to not feel guilty as I do everything possible to get better.