Hello, I'm new to the thread, hope somebody's still about! Have a beautiful 4 month old daughter, and severe spd.
First of all, Herbietea, I'm devastated for you. I wish I could help. Have you checked there is nothing Quentin Shaw can do for you (isn't he the top guy for spd)?
I'm making an 8 hour round trip every week to see a specialist osteopath so there's every reason to be hopeful, and I'm so lucky to have been able to get some good advice on all this early on.
Here's the tough stuff: It's been six months now of being disabled and I'm going out of my mind with loneliness. My heart goes out to everybody here. Can't lift the baby (GP is convinced I just don't want to), can't leave the house because can't walk/drive/push buggy (those buggy brakes were designed by someone with a special hatred for people with spd I'm thinking). Not even entitled to a blue badge apparently so not much incentive to be able to drive. OT followed GP's lead and told me I should just try harder. Have a wonderful mobility scooter but obviously can't clap the carseat on it. If I could lift the carseat...
Quickly going broke so DH's returned to work (in the office downstairs, so lucky but still, he's working) and we're entitled to sweet nothing except, possibly some vouchers for nursery care. The thought of sitting looking out the window while the baby is cared for in a nursery breaks my heart. But the thought of her being able to crawl is enough to spark a panic attack, because I won't be able to keep her safe. Even now, I think she finds the world very dull and spends her days yelling with frustration because it's her and me on a bed, mostly. This is a long-awaited baby and I think of the years of gruelling treatment and don't know how to make sense of any of it.
And I'm scared stiff I've done lasting damage to my back trying to lift the baby. Have had X rays and MRI done - all show misalignment and mild ossif-thingy but no significant diastasis (gap 10mm at widest point).
So ashamed I'm not coping better, but the truth is I'm getting hysterical. And this is while taking antidepressants (which I've taken in the past and had dreadful reactions to).
I'm sorry to go on. Any talkings-to gratefully received.