Please excuse me while I just... AAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH

[addictediam]

I'm just so fed up this evening, feeling very emotional and really want to scream and shout so please feel free to ignore me!

I'm just so fed up of waiting and being in limbo :(

I have an under active thyroid but just when I was finally getting somewhere with sorting it, I stupidly fell pregnant. Now my consultant can't do anything about it until after the baby is born, but I'm really struggling :(

It's my dds 1st birthday tomorrow and as a cake decorator I wanted to make her a fabulous birthday cake but instead have had to buy one as I physically don't have the energy. I'm also decorating her bedroom and really wanted it finished for her birthday but am only managing around 1 hour a day (some days not at all) before collapsing in a heap unable to do any more. There is just mess everywhere as i can't keep ontop of the washing or house work. I just want to cry all the time. I'm trying to get out everyday but am unable to walk any further than about 5 minutes before becoming completely exausted.

I'm so angry and annoyed at myself, why can't I just do things like normal people? I'm not asking much all I want to do is clean my house take dd to the park and make dinner all in one day, not to have to choose which is most important to me.

I've just HAD ENOUGH. I WANT TO BE NORMAL. why can't I just be normal?

A shameless bump for just alittle bit of sympathy.

Please?

have a hug

Poor you,sounds horrible.
Can't you go back to the GP even and get a slightly higher dose of thyroxine? How are your bloods?
As you need replacement for a 'natural' hormone surely this doesn't have any action on the baby?
Consultant may be washing his hands of you during pregnancy (his aim may differ) but you certainly need medical help. From the sounds of it a while back!
See GP ASAP

Please

Ok, breathe out...

I have suffered with underactive thyroid, and took medication up until about six months ago, when it seemed to right itself. I am also in early pregnancy. I am also knackered and crying ALL the time How many weeks are you?

I am concerned that your doctor just wants to 'leave' the thyroid- my levels are being carefully monitored to see if I need to go back on medication. I hope someone who knows more about underactive thyroid and pregnancy comes on with advice; I think you have been misinformed.

Your DD's first birthday is tomorrow. When my DD was one, it was a good day if we all had clean pants on. You really are asking a lot of yourself. She will not remember her cake, better that you buy one now and make one next year when she stands a chance of knowing what it is.

This will not last. You will feel better. Lower your standards immediately.

I'm not on medication, the problem is I finally grew a backbone demanded to be seen by a specialist but by the time all this happened I was pg. My bloods suggest I am within the normal range but the endo agrees that there is definatly something wrong. I saw him 3 weeks ago and he has booked further blood tests and an appointment to see hom again in march with the view to being put on some meds and monetoring how I feel.

After struggling with this for so long the end is finally in sight, but it still feels so far away atm

I'm not on medication, the problem is I finally grew a backbone demanded to be seen by a specialist but by the time all this happened I was pg. My bloods suggest I am within the normal range but the endo agrees that there is definatly something wrong. I saw him 3 weeks ago and he has booked further blood tests and an appointment to see hom again in march with the view to being put on some meds and monetoring how I feel.

After struggling with this for so long the end is finally in sight, but it still feels so far away atm

I'll be 26wks tomorrow

I suggest you contact him and describe your symptoms. At 26 weeks, you should have more energy than this.

And in the meantime, keeping your DD clothed and fed is success. Sod the birthday cake

Lol, I know I shouldnt care but I feel dd has missed out on so much due to my illness and pregnancy and house move she deserves a nice party. I know she won't know or remember but I just wanted to do this for her.

My gp is next to useless so won't do anything, do yoy really think I should contact the consultant? He said there wasn't anything they could do while I was pg as the risks were too high as they weren't 100% certain it is a thyroid problem. Especially with my bloods being all over the place due to pregnancy

She'll love her 2nd birthday cake more. At 1 she'll just want to rub it in her hair (and yours) :)

Hope you feel better soon.

If the consultant has said 'No' Then highly unlikely you will be able to see him.

Best bet is the GP.

The gp refuses to believe i have a problem despite needing to sit down and have a rest after walking up the stairs (and its not because I'm fat or anything like that im only a size 10-12) she only sent me to the endo to shut me up. It was the endo who was quite annoyed it had gone on this long and wished I had seen him before pg. He was very appoligitic about not being able to do anything atm.

See another GP in the Centre. Or get a second opinion.

Is there any chance you could pay a cleaner for 6 months just to help with the housework?What about your dh/dp finishing dd's room?
As for the cake just think of all the fabulous cakes you will do when she is old enough to appreciate them :)

I did look in to hiring a cleaner a few months back, but the only one that was able to come out to us (we live on the edge of nowhere) charged a stupid rate and we couldnt afford it.

but i might have another look and advertise again as i could really do with the help!

dd loved her teddycake from mr tesco! she didnt even know i hadnt made it, or that it was her birthday, we had a lovley party and all our friends were very understanding so it was all good and lots of fun!

I'm feeling much better today and alot less tearful. its not long I have to wait, just till march and then i will be on the road to being better. this time next year i should be all sorted [hgrin]

The problem is my bloods are all over the place. One minute I'm hypo the next I'm hyper but still showing symptoms for hypo. The consultant doesn't have a non pregnant result for me as I was already pregnant (but didn't know it) when I went to my gp sugery to plead they do something about it. I had several blood tests that were all on the edge of normal but swinging all over. My gp eventually refered me (so I would stop making appointments every week and sobbing because i felt so bad) I then found out i was pregnant got an appointment with the consultant who said there wasn't much he could do as he didn't have a reliable test to go on, he didnt want to over medicate me as this could lead to problems with my baby, and as they cant be sure the problem is a thyroid one (as the tests are all technically normal) the safest thing to do would be to wait till after the baby is born and send me for further tests. And if I'm still feeling bad, but showing normal putting me on a low dose and seeing how i get on

I have a blood test followed by an injection then another blood test an hour later booked for feb and he says from that he will be able to see the bigger picture. I then have a follow up with him in March when hopefully he will give me drugs.

He explained it all fully to me including the autism link and other risks of putting me on mess now vs waiting and the risks involved and all in all I agree that its better to wait.

I was just having a wobbly emotional moment!