Oh Goddddd. I'm so fat... I just faced up to it...

[SleepyJess]

(not that it's His fault.. it's mine.. I've been hiding from the scales and eating everything in sight..)

I am not huge.. am not going to pretend I am.. but I am not small either.. and am now at an All Time Heavy.

I attend a Slimming (ha!) club at DS's school on a Friday morning. We pay 50p a week and (pretend to) follow the Weightwatchers diet. I will go in the morning and face the awful truth there as well. And then I will come home and I will actually DO the plan I know so well (I know Slimming World as well.. and CAN lose weight.. but I have allowed this to happen...)

It's as if, over the last few years, each new 'unacceptable' weight has gradually become 'unoffically acceptable' to me somehow.. (anyone else experienced this?) but where would this end if I let it carry on?

I am gluttenous.. and have been eating very unhealthily too. This is the scary thing.. these days I am only too aware that it's not just about what you weigh.. it the fact that you 'are what you eat'.. (yeah I know that one too.. Bloody Dr. McKeith..)

I just needed to start this thread.. I needed to write it down... I have to change my eating habits. It HAS to start here. (Before I got on the scales I had eaten 4 mini ginger bread men and believe me, you don't want to know what else I have had today...)

SJ x

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well that's the first step - when you feel like eating go and brush your teeth - you'll lose weight and have fabulous teeth!

good luck!

SJ. don't beat yourself up. you sound bit like me. you can lose it like you say. be healthy but also remember lots of this is put on you rather than true.

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Thank you Jools. About 2 stone overweight Rickman.. although less if you take the upper limit for my height of nearly 5'8''. And now I am regretting this post.. because it makes me look as if I am saying larger ladies than me are hugely gross or something..

I'm not.. what I'm saying is that I am way too big to feel happy.. I don't NEED to be this size.. it's not genetic or anything.. I have just been lazy and eaten far too much and told myself that food was the last thing I could be arsed to worry about with all I had to worry about. Well enough is enough. No more justification and self pity.. I need to get rid

I feel just the same, I promised myself I would nevr get to the weight I am and it seems like everytime I hit a new high I just accepted it!
I have joined WW and have lost 4 1/2lb so far.
My weakness is biscuits! I have to be strong as I want to lose a stone by xmas! I buy treats for DH but he never eats them, so today I gave all my tasty choccy crap to my mum, my dad loves all that stuff, let him get fat!
I understand how easy it is to give in, but try to think its only food! Also did you know that a chicken kebab with salad and pitta is only 4 points.....great!

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Of course, I need all the help I can get!!! Did I mention that I am addicted to bread!!mmmmmmm lovely bread I could use all my points up on slices of bread and butter! One slice of bread (thick cut) and butter....2 bloody points! I feel so cheated when I look at my chart it see that I have used up 16 points on bread. I could have had a bloody portion of chips!

I'm going to do that Switch thing with WW.. where you don't have to count points as such.. just eat what you like from the list.. and have 24 points a week of 'other stuff'.. it looks better..

Is anyone doing that?