SHOUT OUT to Purple One, Glowwormish, Bla de Bla, Teasle, Brassic M and many many more

wigwigwig · 2011-02-27T01:19:05+00:00

I'm 2 years older and still struggling, but struggling less. I read back on some of our old threads tonight, and realised how much benefit, support and loveliness (sp?) came from our threads. Are you out there in different guises? [grin] I am ... Gerbra and Wigparty... Would honestly love to catch up and hear how you're all doing wig xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

FamilyCircus · 27/02/2011 01:52

How strange, I was just about to go to bed, had a final glance at AC and my heart almost stopped seeing my old user name

I used to be BrassicMonkey btw, and I remember you. PurpleOne is still about and hasn't name changed. Haven't seen Teasle or Kokeshi for ages though. I never really got to know the others you mention.

I'm doing really well with sobriety; coming up to my third anniversary (yehhhhh!) on May 28.

Sorry to hear you're still struggling. D'you want to talk about it?

FamilyCircus · 27/02/2011 01:55

Oh, meant to say that, yes the old threads were great. They were so important to me when I was struggling and kept falling off the wagon. I'll always be grateful to those that supported me.

I think there's another one going now, but probably with different people. Brave babes or something, maybe?

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wigwigwig · 27/02/2011 11:11

Hey FamilyCircus

So great to hear from you - coming up to 3 years sobriety, you are amazing!!! I'm so happy for you!

I'm really good thanks, but I'm still drinking. Having said that I almost never drink in the week now, which is so far improved to how things were when the threads were going.

It was a strange sort of nostalgia reading over an old thread last night. I loved the support and friends at that hard time, but reading made me uncomfortable as I remember how much I was drinking at that point. And I was suddenly overtaken with the urge to post and find out if anyone was still MNing and how they were doing!

Really good to hear from you . I'm so proud of you for your sobriety xxx

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wigwigwig · 27/02/2011 11:12

Hey FamilyCircus

So great to hear from you - coming up to 3 years sobriety, you are amazing!!! I'm so happy for you!

I'm really good thanks, but I'm still drinking. Having said that I almost never drink in the week now, which is so far improved to how things were when the threads were going.

It was a strange sort of nostalgia reading over an old thread last night. I loved the support and friends at that hard time, but reading made me uncomfortable as I remember how much I was drinking at that point. And I was suddenly overtaken with the urge to post and find out if anyone was still MNing and how they were doing!

Really good to hear from you . I'm so proud of you for your sobriety xxx

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wigwigwig · 27/02/2011 11:13

so proud that I thought I'd say it twice

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FamilyCircus · 27/02/2011 14:56

Thank you wig That means a lot to me.

The old threads make uncomfortable reading for me too. I remember a few posters on here admitting that even after years and years of sobriety the feelings of shame and guilt never totally leave you. But I know those feelings were worse when I was actually drinking, and that stops me from ever contemplating going back.

Are you happy with your current level of drinking? It sounds as if you've got it sorted if you're not drinking during the week, because that's what we all wanted wasn't it? To be able to control alcohol and not have it control us. However, you say you're still struggling, albeit less, so I guess you don't feel like you are totally in control. I was never successful at regulating and restricting my drinking for very long. When I did manage it I was counting down the minutes until I could indulge again. It felt like I was holding my breath; I knew the inevitable binge was on the way as it was unsustainable.

I am projecting though, it's not necessarily like that for you.

teasle · 27/02/2011 15:46

Hi Wig,

FamilyCircus said you had posted

Yes, the thread years ago was very good, it meant a lot and I am still in touch with a few people from it.

I havn't been on this site in ages...

FamilyCircus...yeah we never COULD regulate our drinking, that realisation in itself is quite freeing....we know there is no point in pretending we copuld ever drink 'normally'.

So wig, where you at in life then? Hows it going?

The old thread meant a great deal to me too....it was when I was first coming to terms with my alcoholism, and the first time I met and 'talked' to people like myself x

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wigwigwig · 27/02/2011 16:17

Hello Teasle , you are lovely to come and say hi!

How are things with you?

Family you hit the nail on the head! I feel SO much better in myself for regulating my drinking, but I still don't feel in control when I do drink! When I drink at the weekend, I inevitably drink more than I want. But, because I know this is how I drink, there are even weekends when I won't drink at all (too few ideally, but that's a start). And I'm not always so virtuous, I sometimes fall off the wagon in the week, but it's the exception rather than the rule. And the worrying about the drinking is just SO exhausting isn't it lol

Teasle I'm good thanks . Lots of home life stuff happening, DP are I sadly going our separate ways but are still the best of friends so it's a kind break-up, there's no bitterness or horribleness, it's just sad, but it's something we both know we have to do.

I wasn't posting so much to re-kindle the thread, have lurked in Brave Babes from time to time and they seem like a lovely bunch! Just wanted to see if anyone was still around and how they were doing

wig xx

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teasle · 28/02/2011 11:02

Hi wigwig

It's lovely to have a catch up, but was wondering why you had posted- is it for a bit support? Are you struggling with stuff at the moment? Or just remembering....

Break ups are hard even if it's amicable Wig.It's still loss, re-adjustment, facing the unknown.

Remember 'normal' drinkers don't have to regulate their drinking.

The person I am seeing now drinks....but he drinks one bottle of beer a night (if that)...he doesn't think about the amount he drinks, or when, or when he last had a drink, because he doesn't have to, he doesn't have a problem with alcohol. Me? I can tell you exactly the last time I had a drink, how much, etc.....but that's because I didn't drink normally.

Didn't you used to be on FB but then you posted my brothers name on a thread when you were pissed?
I'm not having a go btw, I remember writing to you....

A few of the old thread still keep in contact, it's nice, it's been a few years now going on, it's good.

As Brassic said, she is 3 years sober!! That is amazing isn't it?

Please post back, I will check in now Brassic sent me the link xx

PurpleOne · 09/03/2011 05:10

hi wigwig

good to har from you. my kyboard not too good so am watching thrad and will post again soon.
hop you ar ok

xx

nomadwantshome · 09/03/2011 17:03

OMB how bizarre to see my old user name! Glowwormish if you're wondering. Gerbra or wig how ARE you. Hello PO and Brassic monkey and teasel! God it brings back memories. I haven't been on here for well over a year possibly more. I felt a bit hounded by a thread I started and really didn't want to come on here after that. But I was feeling a bit lost only last week, still feeling home sick for the south and was looking for a bit of support.
Anyway, in November 2009 I went for some hynotherapy for my drinking -bottle of wine a night, sometimes more. I stopped immediately and didn't touch a drop for well over 6months. I then decided to see how I went with the odd drink. I started with a glass of wine wiliest down the pub on a Sunday afternoon. That was ok then fell into having a drink at home. Now I drink at the weekends. I have about three quarters of a bottle and stop. I'm not entirely happy with this but as gerbra said, a whole lot better that before. I actually don't miss drinking during the week and I notice how well I sleep now compared to when I was drinking. I lost a load of weight and lost my appetite for a long time after stopping. I don't know if that's normal. I'm back to my normal weight now.

We've moved and bought our own house now so have made my bed, and coming to teerms with being up north.The business went under in
early 2009. Also back on anti d,s and feeling alot better (came off them without the care of the gp) and boy did I notice a difference.

nomadwantshome · 09/03/2011 17:06

And yes I got ALOT of support from that thread. It was great

PurpleOne · 10/03/2011 03:49

so YOU are glowwormish...

got a lot of strngth from pople her and i still do. mor sobr nights than befor.

we got evicted last july...it made m wake up a bit...

xx

nomadwantshome · 11/03/2011 15:21

Hi PO nice to hear you have more sober nights. As I remember your gp told you that you couldn't give up completely as it would be dangerous? Sorry to hear about your eviction. Wfhat happened?

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wigwigwig · 14/03/2011 23:40

Purple and Glowwormish, hello!

I'm so sorry I posted and ran. I actually rarely venture into General Health but posted this here as I this was where the old thread was. So good to hear from you

Purple I hope you're okay after your eviction. It must have been horrible . Are you okay now? (And I sympathise with your keyboard problems - my left click button is currently on it's way out and it's driving me nuts!).

Glowwormish I identified so much with your posts. I always felt that we were in very similar positions with regard to our jobs, our drinking etc. I'm so sorry to hear your business went under. How are things now? You sound like you've done brilliant with the drinking - I know what you mean though with it creeping back up on you again.

Teasle Things are a bit crazy at the moment but I'm really trying to keep a handle on the drinking, mainly during the week. 99% of the time I'm winning, but it's depressing that it always seems like it's a conscious struggle.

Life with me could do with being less hectic, but things are unlikely to get calmer for the next few months so I must get strong and stay strong.

It really is great to hear from you all

wigwigwig x

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wigwigwig · 14/03/2011 23:43

p.s. Teasle yes it was me - I still remember Facebook-Gate like it was yesterday .

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