OK, namechanger so as to not prejudice what people say. Various professionals have offered ideas, but they are only interested in thier "bit", and I'm not sure what, if anything, to do. I'll not say what "labels" I have, and you can let me know what direction you would be looking in. If you recognise me, please don't say.
I took ages to crawl, was still struggling to do up buttons at the age of 8 or 9, learned to ride a bike (unsteadily) in high school, never really learned to swim. I had speech therapy for a lisp for years. Serveral time I was sent for hearing tests because I would become so engrossed in a task (or, tbh, just staring out of the window, thinking or doing what I have always thought of as having a bit of time off- my mind races a lot but I can sometimes turn it off completely and just drift a bit and it helps with stress).
As a baby I enjoyed being swaddled way past the usual age, and have always climbed into small spaces/got under a heavy duvet if things got too much. It is like I can't cope with too much movement, or things brushing against me.
I have always had problems with certain feelings - ie water on my face makes me go into a kind of fight or flight thing. I can act normal now, but am always looking for ways to avoid getting splashed - I know nobody likes rain, but nobody else seems to get panicked by it. I can't stand anyone being phyiscally close to me, unless it is on my terms- even if DH is behind me, I get nervouse and he has to walk in front, because I am nervous he will touch me without warning.
I'm getting a lot better as I get older, but I used to get really upset if things touched my kness or if anyone even mentioned touching my teeth or eyes. I went months without brushing my hair, and years without getting it cut.
I occaisionally "zone out" partially, by accident - like I spend a day not really taking in what is going on, and feeling "not right"- like I am looking at the world through glass. My memories of these days are always really hazy, but then I have an awful memory anyway.
All of the above has got better with age though- now these things only bother me if I am tired or upset.
Other things - I get obessesions. I am known for it in the family and with my friends. I kind of get all enthusiastic, spend all my money, stay up all night, get full of so much energy, and come up with endless ideas, every time I shut my eyes that things is there. It varies what it is- when I was little it would be an animal, then it started being bands or computer games, now it tends to be political things. The obsession lasts a few weeks, then I suddenly lose interest.
As I have got older, the obsessive periods have started coinciding with lots of drinking, attention seeking, bad and unsafe behaviour (sexual and other ways), not eating or sleeping, and so on. The last few years (since I had children) these periods have included hallucinations, although they seem to have gone now I have a more steady lifestyle. When I am in one of these stages I feel brilliant to start with, then it takes on a darker, more desperate edge.
I also have terrible down time, where I find it hard to do anything. I don't mean feeling a bit down - I mean feeling full of poison, always tired, headaches, like I am walking through mud. I have self harmed (although tbh the self harm was always more about the stuff from before- it works in the same way as being wrapped up tight- kind of focuses my senses) and attempted suicide in the past, and been hospitalised.
I have had several people say I am above average intelligence, and when I do get it together long enough to do exams, I am usually top of the class or whatever. This may be linked to the fact that I tend to drop out of things if I get a B as I lose interest, so I suppose by processes of elimination, if I get as far as the exam I will gat an A or a first or whatever.
Oh, and I am a bit hoardy. not as bad as I used to be, but I get very nervous chucking things out, because they might come in useful at some point, or the way we chuck them might not be right (they might blow out of the bin, they might make the bin break, an animal might climb in, etc). As a child, my pockets were full of wrappers, half eaten food and so on, now my handbag is sometimes like that but I have a clear out every now and again when I am having one of the energetic spealls so it is hardly ever an actual health hazrad. The house is pretty much ok, but DH helps a lot and I know I have to not keep too much because of the kids.
So- random collection of unrelated stuff, for which I should only seek treatment when I am a risk to myself or others (ie the depressive bits), something wider or am I just an odd person? OR, is everyone else like this and they just don't mention it?