Warning this is probably a bit graphic but I'd so welcome som moral support and been there done that style stories:
DD is 16 months I finally stopped breastfeeding 1 month ago and was kind of hoping my bits might have gone back to normal by now. Had a fast 1st stage and then a long pushing stage ending in forceps and a retained placenta. The cord was so short that DD would never have made it out on her own and the placenta was welded to the top of my uterus. Had a second degree tear and this was fixed with manual removal of placenta by lovely obs/gynae consultant (who I know is excellent having worked with her in the past).
Had a bit of stress incontinence at first that's all better although if I blow my nose or sneeze violently I am conscious of my pelvic floor tightening (but I don't usually ever leak). Saw GP at about 4 months post natal who said I had a small cystocoele and that my cervic was a tiny bit lower but that it was well within normal range and would likely improve with time and stopping BFing. Managing sex fine in most positions and now OK with tampons (they fell out initially) although i notice that sometimes the bloos is on the middle of the tampon not the end (like my cervix is along the shaft of the tampon not at it's end IYSWIM)
Had thrush this week and when putting treatment in position was suddenly aware that my cervix was just there. Yuk yuk. Been prodding around and am sure have cystocoele and some descent of uterus - maybe it's about 3-4cm up certainly can feel it. Spoke to DH who has said he is conscious things are "different" and then said he saw my cervix when he was down there last week eughhh. I am now traumatised. I think I want another baby in a year or 2 and most of the reading I've done seems to mention surgery after family complete which is OK except I worry what if it gets worse in a subsequent pregnancy (am v embarrassed to be asking this as my profession is one where I think I really ought to know the answer) am thinking of going to GP to ask for either women's health physio referral or to see lovely gynaecologist who did tear repair (akthough I work with her sometimes which might be a bit embarrassing but I know she utterly knows her stuff). A GP friend said I should just go see GP and gynae and likely would be offered elective caesarian next time and the o after with maybe a ring pessary if symptoms worse in pregnancy (but that feels even more yukky and grannylike)
Oh god, this is something I expect from an old person not a 32 year old