Really Stressed at Work & Really Struggling

[Mojomummy]

I work 3 days a week & have to prepare this pack for 'important' managers & exec to review. I'm fairly new in the role ( same company) & have a new female manager I'm a bit terrified of.

Had a miscarriage in Aug, so a bit tearful & perhaps mind not 100% on job, followed by a breast lump, so again not giving it 100%.

I'm on a call on each Thurs, reviewing the pack. A couple of times very small things haven't been quite right & I feel a complete loser, with comments like, oooh we need to make it slicker, this can't happen again etc. I feel like a right moron.

I ended up dripping Rescue Rememdy on my tongue, which takes the edge off, but afterwards I can really feel it all the stress & anxiety buzzing round my body. I'm TTC at the moment & feel this really isn't doing me any good. Short of going home & getting into bed, really don't know what to do

Does this sound familar & if so, how do you deal with it ?

Could you speak to your line manager and perhaps say that you are not coping very well with being on call every Thursday? Is there nyone else who could do it? Sorry you're going through such a tough time

if I don't do the call, I won't have a job as my working week evolves around this.

Just been on the phone to DH & told him I feel I'm really not in my natural environment, but of course, working to pay bills & unfortunately living in a area which I'm not very keen on which doesn't help.

I think it's just too much at once, feel like a failure, don't want to be a failure

ooh, i can sympathise. I feel very stressed at work at the moment. I run the department but have opted to job share the hours but not the responsibility. My assistant has turned into hitler and lenin all rolled into one. It has become competitive and horrible. Sorry I know this doesnt help you, just wanted to let you know you are not on your own.