All over the place......

[bleepedout]

Don't know where to start really.

Am 45 (well nearly 46).
On POP.
Recently my moods have been all over the place, very depressed, teary, confused - brain fog, really hard coping with stuff, headaches, generally feeling under the weather. Put on a bit of weight recently too which has really got me down. Seem out of control with food and using this as comfort IYSWIM.

Got two kids who I seem to spend most of my time shouting at :( to the point where ds2 (7) says "Mummy, why do you always shout at me?". DH works alot but helps with kids. Relationship not bad but could be better IYSWIM.
Yesterday, I had a REALLY bad day, lots of things went wrong. I ended up sobbing (REALLY sobbing) on my own. Ended up with blinding headache and feeling totally empty and rubbish,

Feel totally out of control at the moment. Just wondered if anyone else felt like this and what they did about it. I've not explained this very well, looks a bit pants when written down.

TIA

Oh you poor thing .
Maybe you're depressed ? Maybe it's hormonal changes /onset of menopause ?
I think you need to visit GP and discuss .
Hope you're feeling a little better ...

Absolutely (have felt like this)! Combination of menopause and stress, in my case.

I don't think the odd major sob does anyone any harm (quite the opposite) but the chronic, ongoing stuff sounds more depressing...personally, I found talking to someone regularly (counselling) helped hugely. But hormonal help, ADs, lots of other options to consider with your GP...

...any particular stress or change over the past year?

Not any more stress to think of really. Work part time (2 jobs), mum of 2, wife, try to keep house running and tidy (not particularly successful). Seem to be losing my grip. I wondered whether a trip to GP might be the start. I did see him a while ago as thought thyroid might be an issue (mother had problems with it too). Tests came back negative. I just can't cope with the foul mood, shouty, shitty person I seem to have become.

hi bleepedout just wanted to say - do go and see GP .
And hope you're feeling better .

Haven't yet made an appointment and felt particularly bad today. Ended up crying my eyes out after school as DS1 had really bad attitude to homework. Finding it so hard to cope. I will try and make an appointment with doc later this week. Also got really heavy period which probably explains the moodiness. PMS doesn't last all month does it? . The brain fog is something else though. Just can't think straight.