Well after being blessed with 30 days releif, since the all clear from my recent referral to the breast clinic I find myself with some brown/red discharge from the same breast. Its only a teeny tiny drop and only when I squeeze my areola. I have had it twice now.
Am utterly pissed off and fed up. Have an appointment tomorrow with God knows who at our medical center. Husband is coming with me because I am at my witts end and absolutely fed up with my breasts. Have been in tears about this. I just want to get on with my life and not have this hanging over me anymore. I dont have time to be ill and drs and hospitals and tests.
It is endless. I have lumpy breasts. New lumps appear all the time. I try my best to ignore them and only venture off to the Drs when they have been there a few months - otherwise I may as well just visit the Drs weekly.
I suffer with almost constant breast pain. Its usually painful in my armpit and I have lumps there too - they tend to come and go but some have been there for 3 years now.
My pain at its worst radiates down my arm making me not want to move and also around my ribcage to my back.
I hate this so much. All the GP does is refer me to the breast clinic yet again - (and I have all the worry and stress that goes along with the waiting that involves). We have moved house in the last year and one Dr at the new Med Ctr even told me it was all in my head and I need to calm down. I try calming down but when I cannot move or sleep for pain and the breast clinic tells me there is deffo a lump/s there how the hell can it all be in my head????
Cancer is just one thing I worry about. TBH - regardless of the symptoms (bloody discharge and lumps) I am in pain and uncomfortable. I do have something wrong with me that is effecting the quality of my life but all I ever get is "Well its not breast cancer, great news hey, and goodbye". Its like cos I dont have breast cancer - my symptoms dont matter.
Am utterly fed up. Cringeing at going again tomorrow and having to bare my breasts to yet another Dr (male) and explain why I cannot produce the discharge on demand.
I am seriously thinking of asking for a double mastectomy. My breasts are ruining my life.