Had 2nd degree tear just over 3 months ago. Took quite a while to heal but all feels fine now, no pain during sex and no continence issues (fingers crossed anyway).
For some reason I am drawn to looking at my perenium all the time. I'm not very happy with how it looks. I can tell exactly where the tear was and there's a curve where I tore into my buttock and although it has healed I can see the J like shape clearly. Every time I look at it I notice something different, I know I should stop looking but just can't! Have seen a gynae who said to give it at least 6 months as the body is still healing, but I don't quite see how this will help. He also said it would be a repair done purely for cosmetic reasons so a long waiting list etc.
I keep telling myself I should be grateful I've got a healthy body and a fully functioning vagina but can't help feeling sad about the state of my bits