I agree with Castle that you shouldn't be too hard on yourself Funny: you gave them a happy childhood, and that is what matters.
And rhubarb, I can understand why you need time away at the moment, as little children are so demanding. I felt the same, and I didn't even look after BabyBearleigh full-time. It got to be a pleasure when he got a bit older. Now it's great as he likes growing vegetables, so helps me in the garden, so we spend quite a lot of time together there.
Did anyone catch Monty on Desert Island discs this morning? It was a repeat, from quite a while ago, on Radio 4 Extra, and I think will still be available on iPlayer. What a lovely chap.
We went to Wisley earlier today. I couldn't understand why they had men directing traffic and why there was so much so early. Then we noticed the butterflies are still in the glasshouse, so there were lots of excited small people queuing (70mins!). It was generally looking lovely though, and there are lots of winter interest areas and scented shrubs aplenty.
And they have plugs of really good varieties of geraniums, fuchsias etc for pots, 10 for £10, which is my sort of bargain. I got two fuchsia Thalia plugs within my 10. She is one of my favourite plants, and is great for pots in the shade in summer, but is usually hard to find and expensive.
It is free entry this Friday!