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Studying PTSD

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theniceunderstandingone · 02/08/2022 12:57

I'll try and keep this brief

From 2013-2018 I studied to be a midwife.
I got to the 3rd year but my first son at the time was a teenager and caused a lot of problems (disruptive in school, expulsion, went to a PRU, then started running away, going missing and got trafficked by drug dealers etc). I had SS involved. My youngest son was having night terrors.
There was also 4 family deaths. I still ploughed on but then I had to step off the course twice.
I went back to finish my last year but I couldn't pass my last competencies or the dissertation because of the above issues.
I never qualified.

I now have a 10 year old (DD) and a 2 year old (DD)
I want to study but whenever I look into it I start shaking and having panic attacks at the thought of essays and revising etc.

I was thinking of doing an NVQ in childcare. Not really my passion but I would need it to work in community nursing or mother and baby units etc.
I love Midwifery and everything mother and baby related but I wouldn't be able to start the midwifery course again because of childcare issues and nights weekends etc.

I just feel so lost career wise.

Has anyone experienced this or know a way I can get over my fear now
Or shall I just settle for the fact I will have to wait until they are much older before I can do anything?

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WhoMe231 · 02/08/2022 20:56

I’m so sorry to hear all that trauma you experienced, it’s no wonder you are having panic attacks. The association with studying is bringing it all back. Have you thought about seeing a therapist to try and deal with it? Tbh if you managed uni level academically I wouldn’t be going down a level to NVQ. I would be more inclined to study open university or something. If you do a core subject (biology etc) you could always go into teaching - if you chose to do a pgce further education you get £26,000 bursary. You would get to work with kids, get the holidays off and a decent salary. Just an idea.

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theniceunderstandingone · 03/08/2022 13:32

@WhoMe231 thank you. I have had counselling a few years ago but it only dawned on me when I was looking at an NCT training course that I have a problem.

I may get therapy again for this education problem.
I have thought of open university but I'm scared of the work load. Think I should sort out my trauma first

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PoundPill · 03/08/2022 13:37

WhoMe231 · 02/08/2022 20:56

I’m so sorry to hear all that trauma you experienced, it’s no wonder you are having panic attacks. The association with studying is bringing it all back. Have you thought about seeing a therapist to try and deal with it? Tbh if you managed uni level academically I wouldn’t be going down a level to NVQ. I would be more inclined to study open university or something. If you do a core subject (biology etc) you could always go into teaching - if you chose to do a pgce further education you get £26,000 bursary. You would get to work with kids, get the holidays off and a decent salary. Just an idea.

This is not true

They've cut the bursary significantly

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