I think ive messed up in a mum and baby foster placement. Help please.

[karch]

Me and my baby are in a baby and baby foster placement due to the risk of his father and DV.
The baby's father is a lot older then me, I met him when I was 16 and he was buying me alcohol drugs fags ect. Now I'm away from him I see that it is grooming now. I was quite bad on alcohol before my pregnancy with my baby but as soon as I found out I was pregnant I completely stopped.
Being at the placement is so stressful, people here are lovely but there's meeting after meeting and loads of stuff I have to do. I've been here 6 weeks.
Due to the stress I have had a drink while here, I can always look after my baby but there worried about it as once I start drinking I don't want to/can't stop.
I have agreed to get help with GP and have admitted there is a problem. As spending so long with babies father they think it because it all I have known as he used to buy me the alcohol.
Can anybody help me with what the court will think?
I have agreed to get help and do anything possible to keep my baby. I'm just so worried now as I have messed up and there concern wasn't me but now it will be.
The SS are still talking about putting me out in the community soon, but Im so scared as now I have messed up but I want to do anything possible to prove I'm not going to again.
Will they give me this chance do you think?

Mum and baby*

If they are still talking about it then probably yes but you must do everything they say. Can you go to AA meetings?

All you can do is be honest, accept that you've got an issue and do everything they ask to address it. You need to learn new strategies for coping with stress that aren't alcohol and that are positive/constructive. I'm sure it is really stressful in the Mum & baby placement, but having a small baby can be stressful at the best of times.

My main concern from reading your post is that you say "you can always look after your baby" but then in another breath that "you can't stop drinking once you start" and "you were bad with drink before the pregnancy".

To me the most worrying thing is that you're saying you can always look after your baby. How can you possibly know this when you are drunk? This is at the worst, how awful things happen to children and you can't be responsible for her whilst drunk or stop something awful happening to her. At worst the consequences could be fatal for your child. At best it's still neglect and child abuse.

You need to show SS that you understand the above and the risks involved, and that you want it put your child first and not touch drink while you have a drink problem, and show it concerns you just as much as it will them, without minimising it.

I'm sorry but if you can't do that, I would think that your child would be much better off elsewhere than growing up like this.

These will be able too help you suggest you contact them soonest if you have not already, will appoint a family nurse practitioner support you and your child for 3 years, help with college , housing , will meet you every week until child is two or three years of age. see www.fnp.nhs.uk
wish you all the best , good luck. XX