Adoption advice for contacting siblings

[Leanneevans95xx]

I have two younger brothers. That were adopted around the age of 9/10.
One has turned 18 in April
One 17 today.
I'm really feeling the pain of not seeing them and wanting to start building relationships if possible.
Does anyone know how I'd go about trying to contact the older brother? Or how I could go about getting my contact details to him if I'm not allowed to contact him? To see if he even wants to make any contact.
We are all badly neglected as children and at a very young age of 8-14 I was pretty much raising them whilst my mum was alwyas out of it on drugs. I'm scared they'll see there file and think all our family are bad, but I can't speak for them but I'm desperate to make some sort of contact.

I was separated from my two brothers and sisters so I feel you pain. Sw still don’t seem to get the impact of splitting siblings which I find very sad. I started by reading my file. You can’t protect them from what happened. I know it’s painful but people have a right to know their truth. If I were you i’d Make a request to go in and read your file and take it from there. Both my brothers committed suicide but I did get to see them before and we had good relationships, considering. If you want to pm me please do. I know how hard this is and how much it hurts xx