Just need to let this all out - feel free to ignore

[BitTiredNow]

I know you will all be sick of me bleating on by now, but I really have to let this go. I tried so hard to make today go well. So I stayed up until 0130 to do the stockings and make sure they were deep enough asleep not to notice, did a special breakfast, etc etc. ds1 (4) spent the whole day moaning that his presents were rubbish and nicking his brother's, played up all the way through church (which we go to regularly so he knows the way to behave), and then picked fights constantly with the neighbours' children who had very kindly invited us to spend Christmas day with them. To make it all the more embarrassing, when some soldiers came into the service today in uniform I broke down and sobbed my heart out in front of all the other congregation - feel so embarrassed and such a failure. I wish I was better at coping with all this.

Oh petal have a big hug ((()))

It sounds like you're coping pretty well to me - why be embarrassed to cry at church? Are you on a base? (Am guessing your DH us away so others in church may know that too, so no need to feel embarrassed).

You're not a failure, you're doing a damned hard job and Christmas is so difficult especially when your kids play up!

Hope tomorrow is a better day for you.

Bit Tired Now

Don't blame yourself that the kids weren't brilliant, they all have Christmases like this sometimes. You've done a fab job, and if you can't cry in church, where can you cry? I'm sure no one thought you were a failure, you're just open and emotional, and there's nothing wrong with that!

xx

The kids are pissed off that their dad is away, you are pissed off that your dh is away.

Today was bound to be a pants day. You have got through it.

Tomorrow WILL be better