Just that really. If we don't get Cyprus, we're stuck in Brize for another few years. I've never settled here, and always honestly, hated it. As does DH.
I just find there's no sense of community here. In over a year, I've made no friends. Our house has been broken into once, front shed area bit on a separate occasion, the house itself is falling to bits, the carpet is coming up and heavily soiled, it's unsafe for DS, there's broken glass on all the pavements and used needles everywhere in the surrounding area (counted three on my 20 minute walk to the shop this morning). I don't want to raise my child here. But I have no choice, and I find it really depressing. I'm no snob. I just want to live and for DS to be somewhere reasonably safe and secure. We've been waiting for a three bed for six months, but nothing's available, so in addition I'm trying to run a business out of the living room which is growing more and more impossible by the day.
There's not much of a social scene where we are either. Nothing to really do with DS locally.
I don't want to return to my old job after maternity leave, but I'm not going to have much choice. Because the job market here is so dire, it took me six months to get this once with 9 years of experience, qualifications and volunteering 
I'm sorry. I know this sounds so whingy and bratty. I know I'm lucky to have a roof over my head and a job to return to. But I'm just finding it so hard to cope when I just feel isolated and scared to be in my own home. I'm devastated we're probably staying. There's nothing really positive about living where we are. DH hates it as much as I do. We looked at private renting, but adding that to paying off our mortgage it's not possible.
How do you make the best of a posting you don't want? Seriously. Because I want to make the absolute best of this if this is where I have to stay put.