My DH is away now until next year, this is not our first deployment by a long shot so I'm more than used to it. I'm just totally falling apart and I don't know why. We have 2 ds 1 with special needs who's been struggling with meds, I work full time and I'm shattered,ds1 hasn't been sleeping because of the meds and is playing up massively ds2 is only 15 months and is hitting the terrible 2's early. It's just all getting too much, I'm not sure what's different this time. Someone tell me to man the heck up !!!