It's not you, it's me

[DameFellatioNelson]

I am here out of habit because I don't have the courage to just leave permanently, even though I have fewer and fewer good times on here lately.

I went away for four days this week and didn't bother taking my laptop with me because I suddenly realised that I didn't feel panic at the thought of not having you all with me. Well maybe I did a bit, but I forced myself to do it and it was fine. Just fine. And although I logged on almost the minute I was back in the door I haven't felt compelled to post much, or even to get involved in the big threads of the moment where all the cool kids hang. Which is a breakthrough for me.

I left for a bit around early September I think, but I couldn't keep away properly so I lurked and posted occasionally under a NC. It was an experiment to see if I minded feeling a bit out of the loop, and I found to my surprise that I didn't much mind at all.

My DH despairs of me being all big, brilliant ideas and no action, and he commented last week (in a nice well-meaning way) that by spending so much time on MN I was merely observing life instead of living it. It was one of those lightbulb moments for me - he is so right.

I have so many things that I need to devote more time to than this, and I know that if and when I do, I'll be happier, richer, more fulfilled and less frustrated because of it. I have a small business that I half-heartedly tend to and it needs more of my time if I am too maximise its potential.

I need to physically move around more, get me some of that motivation stuff everyone talks about, and I need/want to apply myself to my three hobbies which I currently spend so little time on that I don't know how I can look myself in the eye and call them hobbies at all, really. I talk about them, I think about them, I read about them, but I never do them.

So that's me done for a bit. I am deeply fond of so many of you that it will be very hard to stay away but I am going to give it a really good go. I might even have to de-reg. Bye gals.

I hope you manage to not de-reg, and simply pop in every now and then, just a bit less... Have fun with those hobbies!

I am going to de-reg I think. It's the only way. I have the world's most crap self-discipline.

So in future if anyone appears with the F word or the N word in their name it probably won't be me. Just in case there are any misunderstandings or rumours of my return with a personality transplant. If I come back I will pick a new, non-blow job related name which will be a relief for everybody, I imagine, most of all me. It was a silly joke that got out of hand and I've outgrown it, but my ego has forced me to keep it on. Sorry for self-absorbed stream of consciousness shite. How dull.

But I declare that as of this moment I am officially MN-ego freeeee!!!! Hurrah! It feels good. I'm standing on the edge and about to jump right now. See ya.

Farewell, Fellatio. May your hobbies inspire you and your business make you a squillion pounds

visit sometimes though.

Oh FN I did that apart from de reging, you gave me a few kicks up the arse in well meaning ways and one thread when I was very upset you really helped me. I used to be InNeedOfBrandy but I gave up MN for ages and even now I just lurk abit and not get very involved. I do have much more or a life now without MN and normally I just treat myself to a lurk on a sunday morning in bed.

Good luck Fell x

Oh good luck with RL, Fellatio.

I hope you get lots of stuff done. I'll miss seeing you and your username around .

And you KNOW, you'll be back....

Good luck with everything Fellatio.

Hopefully we'll see you again one day.

What attention seeking nonsense

Do I have to post and after that ^ or do we get it?

Good luck fell. You won't know me, as I mostly lurk now,, I used to post more under normastanleyfletcher. I took a massive break after the Christmas appeal stuff a few years ago,

I didn't dereg.

It was good to have the break. I was never one of the cool kids like you, but filling that time usefully was good.

Now, with my commuting I have down time that MN fills up, but it is different.

Anyhoo. Bon voyage.

There are loads here who will miss you.

Good luck.

We haven't always agreed on everything, but I will miss your posts.

It all sounds very sensible to me, Fell, but I will sincerely miss you, I hope you can pop in from time to time.

Until then jolly good luck with everything, and best of wishes.

Is this the end of the Ponce Christmas threads . The Christmas topic will never be the same without you FN.

And hello INeedBrandy and normanstanlryfletcher! You won't know me but I remember you both

I always assume a 'Yoni' is a newbie

I dereg and then came back. I NC all the time now. I find it does change the MN experience as you are less involved - but I find that suits RL more.

Arrr .. threads like these really make me miss the old days.

Hi frosty

Hi,Inneed ofbrandy.

I wondered where you went.

Hi usual, I missed you but I didn't want to tell you my new nn (before I changed to this one) because you might not of remembered me! bit big headed to expect that.

sorry FN don't mean to take over with my old popularity and MN ego LOL.

Good luck FN.

Good luck fell. Don't de-reg though, you might change your mind about your NN.

It's understandable, but depressing that so many old hands are lurking and not getting involved so much now.