I can hear an angry shouting voice in my head and I'm scared

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I was just feeding DD upstairs and it just came into my head. I couldn't understand what it was saying but it was angry. It's made me all shaky and panicky Help!

have a relaxing night
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Go back to the GP.

I hope you get things sorted. You'll be OK. You'll look back on tonight and see it as a turning point for things getting better.

Thanks. Am off upstairs now, hopefully dd will stay quiet so I can have a bit of relaxation in the dark. Night night.

Goodnight.

Well I got through the night ok, am v tired though as I didn't settle until 2 and DD was up a few times. I feel better but still a little jittery. The doctors couldn't give me an appointment til tomorrow. Thanks for all your support last night, it helped a lot.

Hi,you didn't miss a tablet did you?
I was on seroxat before and if I missed one or two I would have relly weird dreams and feelings of dread .One time I was lying in bed and was freaked out taht there was someone in the room, freaky stuff, I came off them but had to do it gradually .
Hope you fell better soon..

I didn't miss a tablet yesterday but I did miss one the other day. Could that cause it? I hate taking medication I can never remember. It was very freaky, I hope the doctor will change the tablets tomorrow. Thanks.

I'm so pleased everything's OK. Just tell them tha you don't want to be on the seroxat. They won't make you take it if you don't want to. It's your body, you choose what you put onto it.

I hope they'll change it. It was too scary last night. If not I'll just come of ADs completely and deal without them.

Counselling or some other types of therapy can really help. I see ab's as a good thing, they help people cope but they don' deal with the underlying problems. These still exist when the patient is no longer on the ab's so is not helpful as they are more than likely to need the ab's again in the future. It's more often than not better to tackle things head on and let it all out. It's a very brave thing to do IMO.

Remember to come off them slowly if this is what you want. Cold turkey can make you ill! Is it PND that you have?

It's more like situational depression I think. It comes and goes in cycles. I prefer counselling to ADs as they're just a short term solution really.

It can be really hard when you are at home with a little one. It's isolating, every day tends to roll into one. There are so many parents that feel this so you are not alone. You can change things though. Are there clubs or groups that you can join? It will help because it will give you something to aim for and look forward to. Even if it's something like a baby swimming group at the leisure centre, anything that gets you out.

I would agree with phantom, although I do know that in the midst of depression you may not want to these things, it is good for you to make yourself do them, it works after a while and one day you realise that you are actually enjoying life again.

Although I'm sure you know this already if you have been through it before

We go to four baby groups a week (I know, trademark lonely mum or what?) I usually don't feel like going but force myself mainly for DD but also to break the day up a little. DP works long hours and it can get very lonely here. I'm trying to go for long walks too and get some fresh air. It all feels so hopeless atm, but I know it won't always. Thankyou for being so understanding.

How are you felling this evening , any jitters?

God I must remember to check my spelling.{blush]

Just a bit funny feeling, not jittery exactly, just a bit restless. I'm worried about it happening again as well.

I'm a single mum and have been since ds was born. I remember what it was like. I used to go for walks with him to the city centre just so I had someone to talk to, even if it was just a hello. I didn't see any of my friends much when I had ds. They stopped inviting me out because I often couldn't get a babysitter. It was a lonely existance, I spent all of my time with ds, doing the same things day after day. I wish I had gone and joined some clubs or a mother and baby group but hindesight is an evil thing.

You're not a trademark lonely mum. It can be so difficult, there are so many in the same boat so you are really not alone. Is there someone at the baby group you get on with? Maybe go for a coffee and a chat? It really is like starting school again, nervewrecking! Is there another club you can go to for you? Something you enjoy rather than to pass the time? You may be able to take dd with you aswell. It's important to take some time for you. What about having a pamper evening with a couple of friends when dd is in bed?

I do the same thing Avena, the pointless walking just for someone to speak to. Most of my old friends have fallen by the wayside, all too busy. I have a few friends from the baby groups I've been to but don't see them much as they're busy too. I'm trying to start some new hobbies but it's hard to find the motivation sometimes.

I've just read that back and I sound disgustingly negative. I appreciate your help

You're not being negative. It can be bra looking after a little one, you get to see them walk and talk but the rest of the time you are in groundhog day, constantly re-running the same day over and over again, mostly by yourself.

Have you tried mumsnet local for some other caterpillars that are in their coccoon, waiting to turn into butterflies? What are your interests?

I've only looked at MN local once a while ago. The nearest people to me are a train journey away, which doesn't sound much but we never have money for things like that. I don't really know what my interests are tbh. I've abandoned so many of them since DD was born. I like reading and writing but they're pretty 'alone' activities. I used to do some art too but there isn't the time now. I just seem to mn and occasionally read now.

Hey I was a lonely mum too once,walking the streets, remember it so well !

I think it's only natural for you to feel worried that it will happen again, that doesn't mean it's going to though!
I still remember that feeling of someone sinister in my room, it was so real and frightening at the time but it never happened again.Even as it was happening I kind of knew that it was the medication and I had been jumpy all day,so I was able to tell myself it's only the medicine and then it wasn't so frightening..

We went to the prom near us today. The waves were huge and DD laughed when they came up over the top of the wall. She chased after dogs but couldn't catch up and had a cuddle every 10 steps. It was lovely. Cold but lovely. I do like my own company a lot, I always have. I like the peace with my own thoughts. But when it's the only option it's not quite so attractive.

Do you have some family that would babysit for you?

Try mn local again. People don't often admit that they are lonely so tend not to put anything on there. start up a thread and see what happens.

My family all either work or live too far away. DP babysat the other night when my dad took me to a concert but that doesn't happen very often as he works a lot of lates. I've looked through all the threads on mn local but noone seems to be close to me, all in Liverpool.