I was on escitalopram for years until just recently. I trundled along on them reasonably well but whenever I tried to come off them I got horrible withdrawal (SSRI withdrawal is a recognised syndrome I now understand) as well as a return of my depressive symptoms.
My GP left the practise and my new GP recommended a stronger AD so that I would actually get better and be able to come off AD's all together. I was prescribed mirtazipine and I have spend almost every waking moment since trying not to fall asleep. Obviously this isn't feasable when I have a job and a preschooler so I gradually lowered the dose and am now not taking any AD's at all. Thankfully mirtazipine isn't an SSRI so no horrid withdrawal symptoms.
I went back to the GP today and she agreed that the mirtazipine wasn't suitable and has prescribed paroxetine. Now, paroxetine is an SSRI which means that when the time comes to stop taking them I will suffer horribly.
I don't want to take them. I am tired of taking medication that leaves me with unmanageable side effects. I may not be so depressed when taking them, but I still feel like shit, pretty much all the time, because of the side effects.
Is it possible to do this myself? I am terribly unhealthy, I eat far too much, don't exercise and am very overweight. If I start taking steps to sorting out those problems will they help? I struggle to maintain my weight, never mind lose any but I know it's not impossible.
What about St. Johns Wort? TBH I am so desperate that if someone gave me a big pill that said "Placebo - no active ingredients" but told me that it would work then my mindset is such that it would probably work!
Any other ideas?
I am going to cut my hours at work (if they will let me, which I think they will) which will give me the time to exercise and cook healthily.
Apols for ramble. My mind is very rambly today.