I need antidepressants.
I have suffered for decades with anxiety, depression, ocd , issues with weight and food, intrusive thoughts, bad dreams and basically unbalanced thinking etc.
My mental health has never been great but I’ve limped on by with endless cbt, exercise, healthy eating, no alcohol and caffeine and just ‘trying my best’.
But I’ve got to face up to the fact that it’s not working. I have some health issues (IBS, endometriosis and adenomyosis). The latter two will need more investigating and operations this year which is already raising my anxiety levels. Add into the fact I am in peri and caring for a parent with dementia and needless to say I’m ready to break.
However, many people I know have gained so much weight on antidepressants including my sister who has gone from a size 10 to 16. I know people will say they’d rather be bigger and happy than slim and miserable and I understand this as I long to feel happier but for most of my life I’ve been dealing with food issues and I love being slim, it’s my identity. The thought of weight gain makes me feel so miserable. I know that is hard for some people to understand but the possibility of any weight gain as a side effect to medication very much holds me back.
I have tried Citalopram, nortriptyline (Was told this has less digestive side effects so wouldn’t exacerbate my daily gut issues) and sertraline but I’ve never gotten past the initial side effect weeks and the fear or weight gain.
Are there anxiety/depression meds which are less likely to cause weight gain? And if the weight gain is due to increased appetite how do you deal with that (I have never had much of an appetite)?