Does your gp surgery not offer any counselling?
My recovery took about ten years, and in that time I had six-week bursts of counselling/talking therapies and one series of hypnotherapy, then months or sometimes years off, then another few sessions. What worked for me was focusing on one thing with the therapist. For example, I had five months, once a week with a volunteer counsellor in a scheme arranged by the local authority, and pretty much talked about my (abusive) mother all the time. Another counsellor was keen to get me out and about in the world and set me homework to join dating sites! It often seemed as if I'd never be better, but eventually, something clicked, and I'm now three years plus out of depression/suicidal ideation etc. I still have the anxiety but that's from a different source.
I tried everything I could access. Mindfulness. Counselling from MIND, one good counsellor, one very bad. The main theme of it all was that I had to push to get help. Like, when you're so far down you can't do anything for yourself or anyone else, you have to be viciously on the ball with these people. I might be wrong but I came to believe that they deliberately make their services difficult to access to keep the numbers down. They've 'taken me off the waiting list' times without number for 'not answering the phone' when I could show they hadn't phoned me. Then claiming I'd given them the wrong number - no I hadn't. One office worker told me he'd made an appointment for me six months ahead (waiting list) and when I phoned to check he'd DELIBERATELY not booked it in. I know it was deliberate because I could hear him laughing about it with the other people in the office.
It's bloody hard to get help but work at it when you can, because the recovery is worth it, I promise.