This isn't right is it?

[NutterlyUts]

For roughly a year I have been feeling not like "me". I have good weeks and bad days/weeks. Around Easter last year it was kind of bad and I did have a few days where I struggled out of bed and often what the point in life was.
Then this summer was bad and I struggled to leave the house (in fact I think I managed it about 1/4 of the times I was supposed to).
Am finding it bad again. I struggle to get up in the mornings and often feel what is the point? I rarely get dressed unless I have to and I burst into tears over practically nothing (which is very unlike me as I am not one to show emotion). The crying has happened roughly since September. It also occurs on "good" days if someone asks if i'm coping, which I think I barely am.

I can't think of a reason of why I feel so ugh, and TBH I kind of feel like a fraud since there isn't really a reason WHY I should feel like this.

I am considering phoning in sick tomorrow to placement (am a student nurse) and going to see a GP, but I'm not sure if thats the right course of action?

Please get in touch with student services before you make any big decisions, they are used to dealing with students who are suffering from depression/homesickness which is one of the worst feelings in the world. If you need to take a break until you feel better maybe they can help you reorganise your work deadlines etc. to give you a breathing space. I would also suggest looking at your funding conditions, I find it a little difficult to beleive that there is no allowances for ill health, if you are diagnosed with depression it is a medical condition and it has to be taken into consideration. They are there to help you get through your course, they want you to graduate and will do what they can to make that happen. I would say don't make the big decision to leave when you at your lowest point, I am sure there are options that you have not thought of.

Updating this thread.

Have official quit uni after talks with my tutor and parents. When I return home I do have the option of continuing at a different uni, but it depends on when I can do this.

Had the Dr again today, and was offically given the diagnosis of depression. Have been put on Oxactin, and when I go home, I will get councilling too. I don't want to rely on ADs, but I do think they will help at present until I can get councilling back home.

Hi, have just come across this. Don't worry about not making the right decision, as if you felt calmer and 'everything fell into place' after being given the option to quit then that means it is the 'right' decision. Also, you won't be relying on ADs. I was on them a couple of years ago for around 8 months, and I had the same fears as you, but they give you space to get on with life, like a cushion. I was amazed at how much better I felt so quickly. You're only 19 and have life stretching out ahead of you - this time next year all of this will probably seem like a bad dream. I promise you it will get better.