Ok, I've read through as much of this as I could without confusing myself and I'm going to give this a go.
What follows is really a self-indulgent message to myself. Apologies, but I need to see this on screen.
I don't know how much I weigh and won't be weighing myself. At least, not yet... too scared! For me it is about how I look and feel and right now I feel fat and old!
Over the years I have done many, many fad diets/ starvation diets/ used diet pills (which shot my metabolism to shit)... I have a very messed up relationship with food and eating in general.
I know the calorie content of pretty much everything, so that bit shouldn;t be hard although I've got My Fitness Pal and Nutracheck on my iPhone.
I am currently a size 18. I've always been big - I was born fat! (a hefty 9lb 11oz). I think I weigh about 95kg right now but it could be more.
I want to be a size 14. I tried and tried and tried for years to be skinny, but it just doesn't work. I look, objectively, ok at a size 14. I'm 5'7" with big boobs and hips, but at a healthy and toned 14 I am in proportion. My main goal is to fit into a really funky and sexy pair of black needle cord trousers from French Connection
So, I am going to start with 5:2 and try to exercise on at least 3 of the non-fasting days. I will combine the fasting with a low GI diet, which has worked for me previously.
I will also try to eat as little processed food as possible (which annoyingly makes calorie counting harder as you have to weight portions etc). My one concession might be Ainsley Harriott soups on fast days as they're v low calorie.
I don't want to get heart disease or cancer.
I want to be healthy, both physically and mentally.
I'm going to do this.
Thanks for listening, if you got this far x