Please no negative comments I'm just looking for those that have been in a similar situation or those that have a 3 child family. To put things into perspective our first child was ivf after a struggle to conceive. Both told very very low chance of natural conception. Second child conceived naturally after a year of trying. My kids are 4 yo and 18 months. now I've found myself pregnant, luckily I've found out very early so there are options.
i know my options but i am really struggling to make a decision. We both work but finances are already stretched massively with the cost of living. I find the first year of babyhood mentally hard and my youngest would only be just over 2 when the baby is born. I feel awful on my two children and also very sad for this life I've created. I feel really embarrassed so haven't told many people. I feel ungrateful because life should be celebrated and I was over the moon seeing a positive test with my other children.
anyway, I'm waffling. In my heart of hearts I'm not sure I could go through with a termination but I also don't want to ruin my family unit? Just feel like we've got back on our feet again and started feeling more myself after the post partum haze!