My husband and I have just found out I am pregnant for the fourth time. We already have two children and our third pregnancy was unplanned, which resulted in a medical termination. We both agreed this was the most responsible thing to do, as neither of us wanted anymore children. That abortion happened 5 years ago and broke my heart. I was lucky enough to catch the pregnancy early and took the abortion pill as soon as I could.
I have been on and off the contraceptive pill from the age of 15 and have tired countless brands over the years. The combined pill caused havoc with my mood, weight and libido so the mini pill was my safest option. This also caused unwanted symptoms and my libido was non exist. I put up with this for four years, before finally coming off the pill last year and feeling like a new woman.
My husband said he would get the snip but still hasn’t. After seeing that faint positive line on the pregnancy test, after trying to be so careful and my husband complaining about wearing condoms, I am beyond angry with myself. I have exploded at him tonight and told him he is a selfish coward, who will not be getting sex until he takes some responsibility. I feel awful saying these things and I know I cannot force him to have a surgical procedure, but I now have to put more hormones into my body to end a pregnancy that could of been prevented if he had been man enough (or woman enough) to have the snip. I am so upset and angry with myself for being in this situation again.