I have one DD (2.3Y) and I love her to bits but she exhausts me sometimes. The last few weekends with her have been so challenging. Last weekend, my MIL was visiting so we took her out for breakfast and DD was a nightmare from start to finish - wouldn’t walk but also didn’t want carried or to go in pram, wanted to climb all over the table at the cafe and then had a meltdown when told no, etc. Today we had planned to go to a farmer’s market type thing about a 20 minute drive away. DD initially v. excited to get in the car but then decided she didn’t want to sit in her car seat, so after about 20 minutes of cajoling, firm words, etc we decided to call it quits and just not go.
DH and I are supposed to be trying for #2 atm but whenever DD plays up all I can think is “thank god I’m not pregnant or having to deal with two of them”. At the same time though, when I have good or normal days l feel I’ll regret it down the line if we don’t try for another. I also know that DH is really keen on another and I wouldn’t want him to resent DD if I had an honest conversation with him about why I’m having second thoughts.
I also just feel like a rubbish parent. DD seems a lot better behaved if she’s just with DH and so part of me worries that I just shouldn’t have another if I’m doing a terrible job already.