Abortion heartbreak

[Bethandherlabradors]

Hi, I had a medical abortion nearly 2 weeks ago. I was very early on 4-5 weeks and it was an accident on the pill (so please everyone be careful). I had it due to medical reasons (I’m in recovery still from ME and long covid where I was hospitalised etc) and I could tell that my husband didn’t want me to continue the unplanned pregnancy. I didn’t want to be a burden to anyone either.

I just feel absolutely heartbroken. I’m struggling to look forward to anything since, I feel guilty to even feel happy. I just want my baby to be there again. The counselling I tried wasn’t very helpful the clinic kept saying it was cells and afterwards just told me it’s normal to feel sad after.
I guess I’m just looking to reach out to anyone with similar experiences, has it got better for you. I’m really lonely I feel I can’t tell family as they are pro life and religious on one side. My husband seems to be doing fine and I don’t want to keep bringing him down either when I’m so upset. Even if it was a tiny something I felt love and regret I had to have this done.
Thank you xx

No advice, sorry, but don’t want to read and run. I’m sorry you are going through this. Take care of yourself 💐

No advice but I have heard it’s common to feel this way. Your hormones could be playing havoc as they settle back down too.
Give yourself time to come to terms with it.

Did they give you any contact details for counselling? If not, ring the clinic you went to and ask for that. It might help to just talk things through with a neutral person xxx

I had an early miscarriage at that stage and was shocked at the strength of the hormone impact, I kept bursting into tears and felt awful. It was like a version of the “baby blues”. I wasn’t actually upset about the pregnancy loss because I knew miscarriages that early are for non-viable foetuses. I can’t imagine how hard it would be if you are going through the physiological side but also regretting it too. I think you should try a different counsellor, maybe the last one just wasn’t a good fit. It sounds like you have some thinking to do about what you want your future to look like.