Struggling after abortion

[Marriedmumof2]

I'm new to this so don't really know where to start.I'm a happily married mum of 2,my youngest has autism and PWS. In January I found out I was pregnant and both me and my husband agreed we couldn't cope with another child as my youngest requires 24 hour care. However,after going through with the termination I am riddled with guilt and regret because deep down I didn't want to go through with it even though I knew it was the right thing for all of us. But the guilt is killing me. I've been to my GP but I still don't feel any better. I've just found out my step daughter is expecting and whilst I'm happy for her it's made my guilt and depression spiral.I feel awful for my husband as he should be happy his daughter is pregnant but he's also worried about the affect it's having on me.

You poor thing.
Just bumping for you, hopefully someone will be along to advise you

I’m so sorry that you are going through this. I have a child with autism too and can understand why you chose termination with that considered. What did the GP say when you went? We’re you offered counselling? I would consider counselling in your situation. You might even consider anti-depressant medication as short-term help (though I understand this may not be what you want). I hope you are feeling better soon. Sending kind thoughts.