Hi all,
I’m hoping someone can give me some reassurance that I’m not having a complete mental breakdown.
Since I can remember I’ve had migraines with auras and horrifically painful periods.
I was diagnosed with endo and I’ve had two laps. Between the laps I had my first baby so my pains have been ok for the past 3 years.
I’ve never taken any form of contraception that has suited me. It either brings on debilitating migraines where I can’t see and vomit/have horrific headaches or I have a constant period for weeks on end.
I elelected for the Jaydess coil as I was advised it would be good for endo and had a very low dose of hormones.
Insertion was very painful and I bled for around 3 months but then it settled down, apart from acne I was happy. I was having around 1 migraine a month which was a massive improvement and I had very light periods.
However, around 3 months ago (so after around a year after insertion) I’ve been experiencing what I can only describe as a crushing sadness.
At first I throught it was because of stress or lack of sleep (our little boy isn’t a good sleeper) but then I noticed other things.
My acne has worsened, it’s very painful and always along my jawline and around my mouth.
My hair is very lank and lifeless.
I’ve got hives on my cheeks constantly and I am always scratching them, making it worse.
I am constantly tired and hungry. I never seem to be full.
I have had reoccurring thrush on and off.
I have bouts of 3/4 migraines at a time.
I feel empty and sad for no reason. I sob everyday and feel guilty for feeling this way.
I can still get out of bed and go to work,although I don’t want to be there and I don’t feel I’m giving 100%. I don’t wear make up anymore as I don’t see the point. I can’t look in the mirror without feeling ashamed about how bad I look.
I don’t feel like I can talk to my incredibly loving and supportive partner about this because I know if he told me he was feeling so sad I would take it personally and feel he wasn’t happy with our family unit. I don’t want him to think he’s done anything wrong or that I don’t love him or our son as I do.
I have always suffered with PMT and felt extreme emotions around my period which is why I’m convinced how I’m feeling I connected to my coil. The feelings I’m experiencing is like constant PMT.
I called in to my GP’s today to ask when the next available appointment was to get it removed and they said March! I honestly feel like I’m about to go crazy because I can’t carry on like this.
Has anyone else experienced this with the Jaydess could or is it just me?
Any help/advice/just a general chat would be much appreciated. I just want to be the best person, partner and most importantly mum I can be and I don’t feel like that is even remotely achievable right now and I don’t know why. :(