when i try to visualise how i'll feel as they wheel me down to theatre, i feel this terrible angst at no longer being able to have a baby. rationally, i know i don't want another (i have 3) but somehow i can't get over the stumbling block of losing my fertility. it's the sensible decision, but i just can't do it! why not?! what's wrong with me?! the longer i leave it, the greater the chance of getting preggers by mistake, which terrifies me
talk some sense into me please!!!