No judging please, very sensitive subject

[PinkLemmon29]

I wasn't sure which board this best fit, I don't want to offend or upset anyone and nor do I want to be judged.

I'm 24, own a lovely home with my long term partner and have 2 lovely little boys 2 years and 11 months. Things are not as perfect as they sound, my mother is going through the late stages of cancer and my partner and I struggle financially. Yesterday I found out I was pregnant again! We obviously wasn't careful enough and I couldn't feel any more guilt and stupidity than I already do! We always talked about having another but certainly not now, not wither everything that's going on with my mum and our money worries. I know what I need to do/what is best for my family but I just can't bring myself to think about it, it's not a baby yet but it could be and I'm never going to see it grow up. All children are a blessing and i feel like I'm being selfish for not embracing this and being over the moon to be having another baby. I don't want to have the baby and take time away from my other children and my mum who needs me but I don't want to 'get rid of it' either!

I'm just looking to rant really but if anyone has a similar story please share.

Thanks you.

That's us. We are 3000 miles away from family and we were done for now as 2 DC is a lot with no family support, DH travels a lot and I want a career.

We are lucky that we can afford it in monetary terms but it still has an impact on our plans, relationship and options.

You have to think about what is right for you and base your decision on that. We have decided to suck it up and stay in our small unit we have either extended our current home or bought a second place.

You've posted this in Family Planning, which is the contraception topic.

If you are contemplating a termination, then you might want to ask MNHQ to move this to 'Pregnancy Choices', where I hope you'll find the help you need.