Angry emotional wreck after coming off Ovranette and Citalopram

[kokopelli]

Hello lovely ladies. I have lost the plot tonight and need help or at least reassurance. I came off the pill in September, and off Citalopram 3 wks ago. My DP works away for several wks at a time. I am at home with DS who is 4. Each wk DP is away my parents have DS for 2 nights while I work. Problem is that recently when I've got him I'm a shouty intolerant quickly enraged mum. I'm not in control. Tonight I managed to cap it after several hours but not until I had shouted, cried and screamed at him when he wouldn't go to sleep. I feel awful and so deeply upset with myself. He's off to his grandparents' tomorrow and I don't know how to make it better. I've laid with him in bed and comforted him and said I'm sorry etc til he's giggling and now asleep but what damage have I caused? And is this me just not coping or could I be hormonal (not pg yet)? I hate what I am like at the moment but I get in a rage and I just can't stop it in time. Any thoughts would be comforting, not that I feel I deserve it right now.

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Why have you stopped the citalopram and how fast?

There have been numerous threads about coming off citalopram that helped me. Hope you get some good advice and support

Thank you. I have come off C in order to try and get pregnant. I was on 20mg daily and took myself down to 20mg every other day for a couple of weeks. Then went to GP and he said I had weaned off well and could stop, it being quite a low dose anyway. I just feel on the verge of being panicky as I don't seem to be fully in control. It's probably not helped by coming off the pill only a month or so earlier. I was wondering if anyone else had had the same and if and when I can expect it to pass. Otherwise I think I'll have to go back on something because I can't function as a parent like this.

I was a suicidal mess when I went from 40 to 20 to nothing to ttc.

Spoke at length with GP and decided that the supposed risk was so small I would go back to 20mg a day as I was no use to my family or myself.

Have heard on here of many other pregnant women taking low doses

Thank you eaglewings. I'll give it a few days. I properly descended into panic today. Panicking about panicking etc. called my psychotherapist, my best friend and my herbalist friend. Lovely herbalist friend gave me a proper consultation then dosed me up with many good things. Never tried it before so fingers crossed. I just want to be able to vaguely cope when DS comes home on Saturday. If not I'll have to go back on the tablets. Thank you for being there

How are you feeling kokopelli?

If you are still feeling dreadful but want to stop the tablets, would you be prepared to go back on a low dose and then wean more slowly? Advice I've had on here talk of ways to do this

Tempting. Saw my psychotherapist today and she was so harsh. Didn't need it when I'm already feeling broken. She has a point - I have to accept I'm the only one that can deal with this, but she went about it in a way that had left me feeling utterly abandoned, like she's cross with me because I can't get my head around some of what she's saying. Anyway I suspect that's another story. I'm very grateful for your input. I'll think about the re-weaning if things don't improve. I can't go on being such a useless mum, and even when DP comes back in December, I can't trust him not to crumble when I lean in him, so unless this passes or I have a miraculous understanding of what my therapist thinks I should be doing, back on the tabs might be the only way. Time will tell. Thank you again. I mean it.

Psychotherapists are human just like us, there are great ones, good ones, and some who should change job!
Have you tried CBT? It really helped me. Also helped my DH as I learnt to interact better :)
Don't do yourself down, I'm sure you are a better mum than you think and the reaction to weaning off the tablets is clouding you from seeing this.

How bad would it be to have a bigger gap between kids by not ttc for another 6 months? I had less choice as I'm so old