breastfeeding, pcos and baby number 2 doubts - do I need contraception?!

[mollysmum82]

I don't know if I want another baby or not. I absolutely adore my daughter and having gone through miscarriages, fertility treatment and nearly losing her at the birth I feel so very lucky just to have her.

I tried for two years to get pregnant the first time. After 20 months I was given clomid/letrozole and this worked after two cycles. I was having no periods and the doctors suspected that I may have PCOS.

I'm now breastfeeding my daughter (15 months old) 4 times a day and once at night.

I'm just wondering if you think its necessary to use contraception too? I've not had AF yet and to be honest I don't really anticipate it any time soon as I haven't had a natural period since I was 16 (err... 13 years ago now) and even then they were very irregular.

My husband really wants another baby but I just don't know. I suffered quite badly from pnd after having my baby and it did put a lot of strain on our marriage. I just worry another baby could put that dark cloud over my head again and I just want to be a happy mummy for my daughter.

Having said that though I'm scared that if I do use contraception and I did happen to ovulate that may be my only chance to have another baby. My husband thinks we should not actively try but not protect ourselves either. What do others think?

Thanks for listening x

iif you really don't want another, then you need to use contraception of some kind.

but it sounds like you really need to decide on that, as if the thought of never having another scares you, it's evidently not that clear cut.

I was terrified getting pg with DC2 as my first pg left me in hospital for about 5 months. But when I was pg with her I was over the moon even though I was so uncertain about whether I wanted DC2 or not. I echo Edgar sit down and decide if you want another and if you do throw out the contraception if not start using some.

Thank you both, I really just need to sit down and give it some serious thought. x