I have really enjoyed reading this thread and the links (especially the book) - thank you.
I have been firmly in the leave camp for a couple of months now, but I truly believed I would vote remain when the referendum was first announced. I also understand the feeling of self-doubt that comes from finding yourself wanting to vote the same way as some unsavoury characters.
What bugs me is that this referendum has been dressed up as the economists verses the racists, your head verses your heart (as if we are all closet racists and we must let reason rule over our base instincts).
The referendum is not about the next prime minister, the economy or policies on immigration, the environment or anything else. These are all secondary concerns, the details of which are about as accurate as a long-term weather forecast.
The referendum is about governance. It is about what shape you want that governance structure to take. For me, a liberal democracy is essential for a free, fair and prosperous society. Unfortunately, the EU fails the social contract test in my eyes, so I will be voting to leave.
A year ago I hoped that I would vote remain and I sat on the fence for a long time, until David Cameron came back from Brussels pretending that he had achieved something substantial. It is a great shame that he has decided to treat the referendum like an Oxford Union debate that he must win at all costs. Instead, he should have let others do the campaigning, while he maintained a statesmanly focus on the importance of the democratic process and enfranchising the population. He could have been a pillar of calm at the centre of a divisive storm, instead of fanning the flames. He has been irresponsible, regardless of the referendum's outcome. It is all deeply disappointing and I can understand that some people may feel that the referendum has become so muddied that they would rather have no part in it.