I don’t know what to do.
Ive been with my husband for 14 years and married for nearly 10. Have 2 kids.
We’ve gone through some stuff recently, he’s spent £10k on credit cards for ‘us’, a couple of holidays which I had no idea about and it all came to a head when I found a letter requesting payment. Turned out there were a few small loans and he was behind on payments- we can’t afford to just clear so he’s in payment plans and I’m so cross at him decimating his credit record and for doing it at all. I don’t ask of him like that so why he’s got into debt for us, I had no idea.
He’s a good man but can be unreliable, doesn’t get things done and this past 6m I’ve really struggled with him.
We had a local event at our village hall, he was at home and I got drunk and kissed and did oral on a local guy. I’ve never cheated in my life, or wanted to. I’m ashamed and feel so guilty but there’s been problems for a while.
I don’t think I can tell my husband what I’ve done so do I just try make up for it and be the best wife I can or end things because clearly I can’t love him if I’ve done this.
I’m so lost, I feel I do love my husband and want my kids to have a stable home.