Married 16 years, 2 kids. Husband has never really floated my boat between the sheets. I’ve got a huge crush on a hot ex-work colleague, now school run dad. I think he might be up for something, when we recognised each other in the playground, we started talking, bit of intense eye contact where it feels like you’re the only 2 people in the world, accidental brushing of hands, some little compliments, that sort of thing. Then my sensible friend told me off for talking to him too much, even though it was him who always made a beeline for me. (Although admittedly only after I made sure I stood where he’d have to walk past me. He didn’t have to stop and talk though).
Anyway, I backed right off and now he barely talks to me at all but I’m harbouring a massively intense crush on him that I can’t seem to stop. I feel like he’s the man I possibly should have married.
He still double takes when he spots me and there’s been some definite lingering eye contact again lately. I’m polite and say hello, but I’m careful not to purposefully get into his vicinity.
Will I regret it if I stay the course in my marriage, complete with it’s mundane functional sex, knowing I could’ve had what might just turn out to be the hottest sex of my life with this beautiful man? It seems like such a missed opportunity. I’m 48, still got a decent sex drive but I’m aware that it probably will dwindle in the coming years.
It’s wrong though isn’t it. We’re both married with kids. The fallout would be massive if it happened and we got found out.
Anyone else experienced this ethical dilemma? This must be really common, surely?!