I had an abortion 10 years ago when I had an unplanned pregnancy. I always regretted it because I wanted the child but at the time I felt I couldn't afford one and panicked.
In the years since then I got a good job, bought a house, have a partner and am in the perfect position to have a child now. We've tried to get pregnant but I've had 2 miscarriages in the last year, presumably due to my age and egg quality issues.
I have such a deep pain inside at the fact that I chose abortion all of those years ago. I feel like, in hindsight that I could have made it work and that I would have been a good mother. I often see 10 year old children and think about what my child would have been like. I have frequent panic attacks and often feel suicidal.
Does anyone else feel like this? How did you cope with the guilt and feeling like you want to die all the time? Why does nobody really talk about the emotional toll of abortion?
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Siobhan24 · 12/03/2024 09:36
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